Today was an interesting spiritual day for me.
Not that i had an interesting spiritual encounter, but rather, many thoughts and challenges that ive come across.

Today, i met sis cheryl.
And we talked.
And as we talked, she said i was her superstar. And that i would blossom wherever she places me. I was really touched when she said that. I was touched because i was thankful for the favour i had found. And i was glad that someone saw and believes in me in this certain way.

As we talked, i thought through many things.

I realised this year has been one of the best years of my life.
Yet ironically, it was one of the hardest.

Ive had the best school spirit and friends i could ask for.
I started making something of myself in my greatest passion.
But i missed many golden opportunities for reasons i do not understand.
And i destroyed friendships i treasured with all my heart.
I nearly walked away from God completely.

Yet, i feel like ive grown stronger than ever.
Ready for the new year ahead.
I now understand what P.Andy meant when he said that the time will come where the youth will step up to the same line as the Adult Leaders.

When God set me to leave sat and go sunday, neither pandy nor me knew why. But after stepping into the sunday cell, i have found out why. God had set me there to lead the cell.

Next year, after the J2s leave, the only Sps left in RR would be Giselle and I. And the Sbs... well, we will have to take more than 1. And as i look at the people left in the cell, i dont forsee an easy time ahead. I forsee next year to be a year that will be heartbreaking, but yet rewading. I see the year as one of great prayer and trust in God because many things will be beyond my control. Yet i must go beyond the norm to reach out and grow my people. I do believe in the potential that they have, but i will need to grow a relationship and trust. And wisdom and strong discernment from the holy spirit as i speak into their lives.

Oh God. Help. Haha.

Well, P.Andy told me Next year would be a very important year for me. and oh. dont i know it.

I feel that God has placed a certain annointing on my life.
And as they saying goes- With great power comes great responsibility.
And i know sis Cheryl will push me to join IH.
Oh Lord help. Haha

But even so, wow.
I just gotta keep close to God, and hold on no matter what. It may be hard, but God, i am holding on to you.

Yesterday, i met joan to write a song for my soma recording.
And after a rather gruelling 4hrs, we wrote a song.
And its beautiful. (:

The title is 'I Find My Hope In You'

And everytime i hear the chorus, i feel encouraged despite my troubles.
This is how it goes:

Your grace and mercy
And How your love will direct me
Through the days your song is with me
I find my hope in you
And though my heart breaks
I know you have the plans
I lift my hands in surrender
I find my hope in you

I think this song might be my greatest encouragement in the year ahead.
Lord, speak to me.
I need to hear your voice.