A Successful Life

Hello everyone.
Who hasnt given up reading. Haha.

Here's the news- I didnt make OGL'10
Yupp.
The ever excited, ever enthusiastic, ever hyper Hannah didnt make OGL.

Wow.

When i couldnt find my name on the list, surprisingly, i didnt feel anything. I didnt feel a great pang of disappointment, i didnt feel upset, i didnt feel happy either. I just looked at the list, sighed, and walked away with my head held high in the air.

I dont know whats with me. Haha.

Have i missed out on too many dreams this year that i have become numb to the disappointment?
Have I been stoned by life so much this one didnt even matter anymore?
Haha. My reaction shocks me.

I thought i'd be so devastated if i missed out on OGL.
But now i just feel... nothing. Nothing at all.

Maybe i kinda expected it?
Come on. who am i kidding.
I was probably the only one who applied despite 3 R papers.
Maybe they hate my guts for even trying. Haha.

So now i wonder. How should i feel?
Shoudl i feel upset they didnt choose me?
Or angry they didnt even give me a chance?
And should i really not perform for the SC anymore?

Hmmmm...

Well, i think the reason i didnt get in was because of my freaking 3 R papers.
Sigh. This is Singapore.
I was talking to Mr Tan yesterday and we talked about alot of rather deep stuff.
one of them was studies.
And i felt very sad as we talked about it because it just saddens me that Singapore is such a community based on Education. And this year i have experienced so much on non-acadamic skills that will take you far and further than your education can. Yet, in the end, all people want to see is that qualification on paper. I feel sad. Very sad. Because sometimes, the most capable people are brushed because of something as superficial as grades.

Well, as i thought about these, i thought of my life.
I thought of the things i have accomplished.
And i say to myself - I have lived a successful life.

My grades are average. Yet i feel like i have accomplishd much in my life. My grades are terrible in school. Yet i feel like the most successful person in the school. Every other area of my life has achieved greatly in one way or another. So because my grades arent good, does that mean i am not succesful?

No, i beg to differ.

The greatest thing that has happened to me, was that God has been with me all these while.
THough my studies have lacked, God has blessed me gretly in my life, and i feel very blessed. The road i have walked has been tough. But yet i say i am blessed because God has been good. God has been amazingly good.

And i feel successful.

Why does this society only see grades?
Why cfant they look beyond that?
Success is not from grades alone.
It comes from deep inside the person as a whole.

My grades are terible.
Yet i feel successful.

I have a God who is amazing.
I have a great family.
I have great friends.
I have an amazing track career most people can only dream of.
I have a rather super human strength for a singaporean athlete.
At the same time, i have a voice that sings into your soul.
I am a leader.
I am passioante about the things i do.

So why look only at my grades?

Even so.
I dont care.
Because i feel successful.
Very succesful. (:

And all these successes are not without their credits.
THe biggest one to God.
Because it was HE that made all these come to pass.

Thank you Lord, for my successful life.
I feel content with what i have achieved.
I feel very blessed.
THank you Lord.

I praise you for your goodness in my life.

You have been good, oh Lord.
You have been good. (: