Missing you, love.

Everytime i go to school nowadays, i feel like i miss Chantal more and more.
I really miss her company.
Class is no longer the same without her beside me.
Without her laughing at my jokes, talking to me about anything and everything, sleeping, drawing, listening.
God i miss her so much. :(

Aye.
School is becoming a little more bleak the more i think about it.
I didnt make OGL.
Not sure how i'll handle it when orientation starts.
Studies are gonna pile up.
Not sure how my track career will be.
Chantal and Bo Tin will no longer be there for me.

God i feel so stressed.
And upset over my life that is to come the year ahead.
I feel so messed up.
So lost.
I just wanna break down and cry.

How odd.
Though i feel this way, the words of my own song speaks to my heart.
And is providing that encouragement i need in this season.

I find my hope in you
written by Hannah Lee and Joan Wong
The walls are closing down on me
The waves outsound my symphony
My world is dark and I cant see
I search the world but find no answers

Then one day an angel came
To remind me of

Your grace and mercy
And how your love will direct me
Through the days your song is with me
I find my hope in you
And though my heart breaks
I know you have a plan
I lift my hands in surrender
I find my hope in you

Sometimes i want to run away
So many times i dont understand
Why things would turn out this way
Its not what life's supposed to be

Then one day an angel came
To remind me of

Your grace and mercy
And how your love will direct me
Through the days your song is with me
I find my hope in you
And though my heart breaks
I know you have a plan
I lift my hands in surrender
I find my hope in you

When i reach the end
I will understand all that you've instored for me
My trials are for my victory
And i know Im redeemed BY

Your Grace and mercy
And oh your love will direct me
Through the days your song is with me
I find my hope in you
And though my heart breaks
I know you have the plans
I lift my hands in surrender
I find my hope in you