Hello.

Today was an interesting day.

I woke up late and was late for training. Haha.
But training was quite horrid.
My body was really tight from wed's training.
So my training was awful today. :/

So after training, i went to church for the rehearsal for Ignyte's got talent.
And i became the vocal coach of the day.
HAHA!
It was really interesting for me.
I guess most of the things i did came to me rather naturally because it's become a part of me as a performer. A rather experienced one in a sense. Haha.

I started out helping Krystle with her song - If I Aint Got You.
I even let her have my minus one track. haha. :)
I guess i really got over the whole giving song episode.
Well, i kinda came to terms with it.
Each artist has his or her interpretation of the song.
So the song is still mine.
Well. at least the way i did it.

I didnt teach her what i did.
I just helped her according to her style.
I didnt want to give her my ideas.
I wanted her to make her own song. (:
And i really thank God that when i helped her, i helped her geninely, with no hint of envy or anger. But rather with a true heart that wanted to help. (: Haha. YAY! I think im growing. (: So Thank God for that. Haha.

After helping her out, and she sounds really good btw. :P
I helped Dan Yau out with his song.
Lots of pronounciation and voice projection and using the within to sing. (:
Well it paid off cos he sounded ALOT better than when he started.
Hopefully he'll keep it that way. HAha. (:

So anyway.
After them, P.Andy wanted to hear mine. I think he had his doubts and because of the lack of time, he had half the mind to scrap my singing. I honeslty wouldnt have any issues with him taking my portion out cos im here to serve and i already have served in many ways, esp with the position of a youth in such a special event. So to me, i felt like ive already done my part. Besides, i have performed so much outside already, i guess it'll be fine to give others the opportunity this time. (: Haha.

But he asked me to try out the song anyway.
And i did.
The guitar wasnt awesome cos the strings were so slippery.
And to suddenly hear my voice in that area... Haha. Not so used to it already.
So it wasnt SOOO awsome, but the spirit and emotions went through. (:
So thats okay..

Well, after i performed for him, he knew at once he wanted me to sing on both days.
He said this "After watching that performance, i feel you carry a certain annointing in your singing"
ANd i instantly said "I know"
HAHA!

yes, it is suuuper bhb.
But it wasnt becuse i fel proud he said that.
But it was truely from a place of belief and conviction and calling i have received and felt from God for so many years in my life. I have always believed and felt that God had placed a certain annointing upon me and my voice. So im not ashamed of that.

Well, one example would be when i worship lead in FMSS.
After that session, Benedict came up to me and said "Annointed."

So i actually know that i carry that annointing.
And being in WM also cultivated that sensitiveness to that annointing as well.
Which is perhaps why i felt frustrated after awhile getting nowhere in WM.
Its becasue i knew i had something to give.
And not being able to give it to its fullness frustrated me.

Which is also why i find joy in singing outside.
Cos i get the freedom to express myself and reach out and touch the hearts of people with my voice. And that is a great gift i treasure that the almighty has given to me. and i am truely grateful for it. (:

Well, P.Andy told me i will be a 'contestant' this weekend at Ignyte's Got Talent.
Honestly, i was trying NOT to become a contestant cos im afraid it might pull out the competitive side of me that would PERFORM instead of MINISTER.

But right now, with all my heart, i want to pray and set my heart right. Because i know this is a long-awaited opportunity from God to me to serve and minister with my voice. I am truely seeking to minister instead of just singing. I want to spread the love of God with the song im singing. I want to let people experience the intimacy i enjoy through the song i sing. I want God to use this song to touch the hearts of people.

Father,
I pray that you will use me greatly this weekend to touch the hearts of people. Lord, i thank you for the opportunity to serve you in this area. To lift my life as a living sacrifice, just as Romans 12 says. Lord i truely want to serve and worship you. May the song i sing bring music to your ears, and may you use it to reach out to the congregation. Lord i know out of the spirit there will be an outpour andan outflow of annointing this weekend. And i believe you will use this opportunity like never before.
Lord. Use me.

I thank you Lord.

In Jesus name i pray,
Amen.