Power Hungry

Someone told me that i was power hungry today.
Well i wouldnt consider myself power hungry, but i would rather think myself to be a natural leader. Not that i think i am fabulous at leading a group or something, but its something that is natural, that is inborne, that is part of my rather dominant nature. I dont like commanding, ive learnt its not worth it. But yet i enjoy leading people. I enjoy taking the innitiative to lead a project, to lead people in the direction i believe is right.

Is that being power hungry?

I accept the decision made by the teachers in charge and by the track team.
Though honestly, i really did hope to be appointed the vice-cap of the girls team. But since i didnt, im fine with it too. (: I guess it wasnt the position for me, and i accept that. (: PErhaps Grace and Shiying are better than me. And i will support them because they are my captains.

Ever since i came to VJ, i have found my leadership path to be rather interesting. Instead of fighting to be in the lead, i decided to take one step back and follow instead of leading. I used to be someone in Fairfield. A rather prominant figure. A worship leader, a student councillor, a captain. But when i came to VJ, i decided i would desire none of the leadership position and just let nature take its course. And nature has taken a very interesting course for me. (:

I didnt join house com because i was afraid of the commitment.
I somewhat wish i did now cos it looks like SO MUCH FUN!
But i guess that wasnt quite part of my destiny, so be it. (:

I tried to run for class chairman but it was given to someone else.
Well, i guess my class didnt quite believe in me when we all first met and the networking among my classmates wasnt strong so i guess thats why i lost out. Well, i didnt mind settling for a normal student status in my class. (:

I didnt join the Students council.
I REFUSED to. Haha.
I;ve been in te prefects and council since primary school.
Enough rules for once in my life!

So. I didnt get any leadership roles.
I didnt quite volunteer for any.
As not humbling as this sounds, i humbled myself in VJ to take the roles of ordinary citizens of VJ- Only to become more outstanding than i'de imagine i'de become.

Lets start with my class, shall we. (:
Though i wasnt made the class chairman, i still lead the class in subtle ways. Im proud to say that i may not hold a prominant class position, but yet i have earned my classmates' respect. I Thank the Lord for the favour he has granted me with my classmates and thought i am a nobody in my class exco, i am a somebody to my class. I know for sure my classmates respect me and it touches my heart to know how much they care. (: Through SLV, i have seen how my class has supported me as a leader. Though i became the unofficial leader of the SLV, i have but proven my worth as a person and as a leader. And to me, that is good enough. (:

Whats the point of having a leadership role if you dont have the hearts of the people?
Wouldnt it be better to be a nobody, yet win the hearts of the people?
Thats something ive learnt.
And it is really interesting. (:

Secondly, Track and Field.
Dont get me wrong, im really really totally fine with not being the vice cap of the team. But it touches my heart to know that many of the trackers really believed in me and really looked to me as a future leader of the team. Well, though i may not be the vice cap, i will put in my effort to bring the team forward. (: Odd thing is, im not the vice cap of my own team, but im the vice cap of the ASEAN team. So which one speaks louder? Im not really sure. Haha. (: Quite interesting, no?

Well thirdly, i didnt join any leadership role in school.
But yet at the soccer match yesterday, when i shouted and asked the school to get on their feet to cheer for the soccer guys, they did.

I dont understand whats going on.
Maybe it was the recognition of person from musicfest.
Or Maybe its because i was totally loud and big and prominant.
I dont know.
BUt somethings happening.
God is granting me favour with almost everyone i meet.
I am making an influence on the people i meet.
I am impacting lives of people i meet.

Hmmm.
Maybe as Pastor Andy said, that as i impact people, i'll direct them to God?
I dont know.
But i smell destiny.
And i know its not far away any longer.

Lord, call.
Call me.
I believe you have the best planned for me and i dont wanna miss a thing.

So.
Am i power hungry?
Haha.

Give everyone what you owe him,
if respect, then respect;
if honor then honor.
Romans 13:7