Stressed out.

Too many things have been happening all at one shot.
Competition.
Test.
Music Fest.

And im fretting over every single one.

Competition's next tuesday but i dont seem to be performing.
I try hard during training but i seem to be hitting no where near the record.
And everytime i look at it, i feel like its within my reach, but i just cant and i dont know why.
I dont feel excited.
I dont feel nervous.
I dont feel anything and that scares me.

A voice within tells me to just take the gold cos its obviously mine.
And that makes me even more scared cos it shows that i really have lost that fighting spirit i used to have. I used to believe i was the only one that i needed to beat. But right now, i seem to have lost that too.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

WHATS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!

Then test.
Tmr/Today i have a bio test.
2 BIG chapters.
And i didnt get to study till today.
Its so horrible cos im trying to focus on my competition and i have no time on my hands to do my work and train and study at the same time! :(
So tmr's bio test...
si liao la...

And Music Fest.
My beat boxer is MIA.
I cant contact him and no one knows where in the world he is right now.
He hasnt been in school, his hp is off...
I dont know what im going to do cos the semis are in 2 days time, and we havent practiced and weicong hasnt come up with anything on his part cos he needs the beat boxing.
Oh God.
I have half the mind to leafve the competition and forget about music fest.

I need a miracle.

Im totally maxed out.