Sad goodbyes.

Now moving on from the previous post.
Its two different subjects altogether.

I hate goodbyes. :(
And recently, i had to say goodbye to 2 of my closest friends in VJ:
Thomas and Chantal.

Last week was Thomas.
Today was Chantal.
Ahhh. Its getting harder to keep my emotions stable. :(
Haha.
See what i mean? T-T
lol

Anyway.

Last week was J2 Farewell assembly. I sang 2 songs for assembly and ya.
But it wasnt till open house later that evening that i said my goodbye to Thomas. :(

Man. I really miss talking to Thomas. He's like real awesome company.
And to say goodbye was really really hard cos we share this really special bond thats hard to find. :/ And sadly since he's J2, he wont be in school next year unless he stays back as a relief teacher. Which im not sure he might since i havent talked to him in like FOREVER. I mean like in sec school, my special friends were my age. :/ And to part it was okay cos we're all going different directions at the same time. But Thomas, i'll be continuing that journey in the place we met-Just that he's no longer there. :( Aye. I'll really miss him but well, we all need to move on with life, right?

And today, Chantal left school.
Chantal left to go poly and honestly, im really happy for her. But I'll raelly really raelly miss her so so so much. :( She was always there for me in my ups and downs in VJ and has made my Vj life sooo much more enjoyable with all the mad stuff we do together to entertain ourselves. She shared my views and thoughts and Ive always enjoyed my conversations with her cos she really understood what i felt. And vice versa. I really thank God that i have met a friend like her who has been really really really special to me. And Im really raelly really sad that she's leaving. Man. If not for Jesselyn, I'll be soooo lonely in class. :( Its the same situation as Thomas. Except that Chantal was a greater part of my everyday school like. She was my pillar of support everyday. And to lose it, well... I'll have to deal with it eyy. :/

And soon, the second of my chantal botin kahkee is leaving for overseas studies too. :(zomg. My entire class clique is leaving. :( Though im not as close to botin as i am to chantal, i really appreciate her cos she brings a crazy different perspective to things and its so fun to just watch her cos of her funny face. haha. I really raelly enjoyed hanging out with her and i appreciate her soooooo much for being there for me at asean. OMG! If she leaves, THAT MEANS I'LL BE ALL BY MYSELF AT ASEAN NEXT YEAR!!! omg.... :( Thomas you'd better be in malaysia while im there. HAHA. :( but yea.

omg i'll raelly miss all of them. Each and everyone of them have played such a big part of my VJ life and have made school so much more special than i ever expected or hoped it to be. And now to know that next year, i'll be left with none of the above, the feeling is terrible. Its horrid. Its eating me on the inside. I just might cry. Again. :( OMG. Im seriously 9lonelygirl2@randomemoemail.com. Hahahahha. Came up by augustin. Stupid boy. lol.

Oh God. :(

But one thing i really thank God for is that he made thigns easier for me.
Like the whole falling apart with chantal and botin made it easier for me to let go of them, though i would have rather been close to them with all my heart. But i guess its alot easier for me to let them go and carry on with life in VJ. But i wish that we had been as close as ever. And i wish i didnt do the things i did. But well, thigns happen for a reason. And i guess we just have to let bygones be bygones and move on with life. At least ive learnt that i shouldnt act in certain ways. And i will correct that in the future. Ahh. me and my complication brain. :/ Haha.

And recently, God has been bringing so many new friends into my life. And i dont mean just hi-bye friends. I mean people that are getting closer to me, deeperin the friendship. And i raelly thank God for them. Perhaps next year will be a year of forging new deeper friendships with them aye. :) God is a good God.

But for now, let me sort out my feelings.
Im still feeling kinda sad. :(
Aye....
9lonelygirl2@randomemoemail.com
Haha.