Saturday

Hello!

Last sat was quite a disaster, yet a miracle.

Last sat was the 2nd all comers meet, and i went for it.
My event went terribly wrong.
I just wasnt up to it.
Just the day before, almost every single throw was a 11m.
And on sat, my furthest was only 10.46m.
What a disaster.
Even my competitors didnt want to congratulate me because they knew it wasnt my best and even they expected more from me.

Well, i was actually really touched by that. (: It was a breathe of fresh air and i really appreciated them not congratulating me. It showed me that they cared for me beyond a competitor, but as a person, as a friend. Though we are opponents, they still wanted the best for me. And that, is awesome sportsmanship.

Joanne and Jaime were ultimate losers.
They totally mixed up their event timings and hence missed both the shot putt events. Lol.
What jokers man. Seriously.
*sigh...*
Sorely missing an awesome senior like me. :D

Anyway.
I felt quite sad about my performance and after the competition, i had a long discussion with my coach. Well, we came up with a few conclusions.

1. Now we know I need at least one day's rest.
2. The problem with my throwing is my technique. My strength is more than sufficient.
3. I can peak twice in a year. LOL!

Oh well.
I guess it was a blessing in disguise. Better to make mistakes while i still have time to correct them than make them and cost me much during a prestigious competition. Dont you think? Haha. (: Thank God anyways. (:

After competition, i went to watch my sis for awhile. She's actually pretty good. Needs to work more on her technique though. Haha. (:

After that, we went to church. My mum picked us up and we reached church slightly late but just on time. Haha. (: Well, i stepped into service extremely depressed. I dont know why. But as the praise started, i decided to praise the Lord agaisnt all odds. It was hard and i was about to burst into tears. But as i jumped and praised the Lord, my heart burst into joy and hope. and Something changed. Like a burden was lifted from my shoulders.

Worship was really awesome esp with the launch of the new song. God's presence was so prominant, so tangible, so powerful. I fell to my knees and broke down in the presence of God. Where i found protection, love, and comfort. Freedom to show how i feel, freedom to share what my heart felt. I felt the powerful presence of God. I knew what i was missing- God.

Through the sermon, God led me to many things. When sis raine spoke about Moses being the man in the lead, the man that led the ppl of Isreal, the man that had to lift his staff to show the direction to go, the man who rose to lead the ppl, I felt the Lord tug at my heart. Somehow, i felt that the Lord was telling me that i was that moses. I was placed in his situation. I had a people with no direction, with no God. And here i am, a christian wanting to do something great for God.

Its quite interesting when i think about it, the past 2 weeks, i havent been offered or given or volunteered or actually self-volunteered to take up any leadership roles. Its so amazing. Perhaps God has intended for me to lead in other areas i have yet to have seen.

Thinking back about that too, Its been a rather interesting week.

During the week, I've been exposed to different ones that are christian, different ones who are not. Several christians that i sense really have a thing going on with God, and i sense 1 word while conversing with them- Destiny.

Mr Melvin Tan also approached me on the track cell thing we used to have. And he wants to start it again. Apparantly, there are alot of christians in Vj and we saw many salvations last year. And he's gonna call for another meeting. Perhaps i was meant to be the leader of that cell? I dont know. But somehow, there's a calling. And im about to answer the call.

Indeed, during the service as i seeked the Lord, as the Lord found me before i found him, i found the refreshing of my spirit. I found realignment. I have been astray ever since i stepped into VJ. My priorities and courage shaken. But as the Lord encountered me, he reminded me to stick to my principals. To my love for him. And to hold on to the promises that he has made to me. He will pave the way for me. And that i have found favour with the Lord.

After all, isnt favour with the Lord more important than favour with men?

Ah Lord God.
Help me to trust in you in Faith. Help me to be bold in worshipping you in school. Allow me to encounter you in my own times in VJ, just as i have in Fairfield. Lord, i believe for great things to happen. And Lord, pave the way, and go before us all. For what result will a battle end with unless the Lord is with me?