I really want to change to H1 bio.
But it seems that if i change to H1 bio, i cannot take Dentistry in NUS because it requires H2 bio. And that really sucks because i really dont want to take H2 bio because there is really so so so much to mug. :( And i dont exacly have the time nor the capacity to mug. How?
If i take H1 bio, i might have to change my course in life.
And i dont exacly want to do that because I dont really know what else i want to take.
I dont exacly know what i want to do, nor what i want to be when i grow up.
And every decision i make now seems so vital to what i will be when i grow up.
Will i be a dentist?
Will i be a Physiotherapist?
Will i be a lawyer?
I dont know.
And i dont seem to be getting any answers.
My mum made sense when she said i only need to slog it out for 1 and 1/2 years and then have my whole career set before me. 1 and 1/2 years of madness only... Should i take it up?
I need to pray about it.
Do pray for me too, ya?
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Thor (:
Today was a day well spent with Thor. (:
I started the day with Cross Country. T-T
Started at the back of the pack, overtook alot of ppl, and still ended up facing a WHOLE big group of people crammed up infront of me. T-T Then i gave up trying to overtake. Haha. Didnt push myself as hard as i did during PE. Walked a little, but lest then 400m. The most hardworking thrower. Haha. Then at the end of the race, i wanted to just give up. but Wenxin ran beside me and waited for me and cheered me on and that was so awesome, really. She helped me push myself to sprint the last lap and that was really awesome. (:
Thanks Wenxin. (:
After that was just mass dances, cheers and prize presentation. Lol. Pegasus didnt do too well. Mainly because we dont exacly have many sports peeps i think. Ah well. (: I wasnt at all put down by the results because its not our fault all the crossers arent from pegasus. So why freak out, panic or be demoralised? There's still time to catch up. (: GO PEGASUS!
Anyway. After cross was stupid bio tutorial. T-T Which was totally UGHHH. T-T I think its a really dumb reason to make us make up a lesson that wasnt our fault to miss. T-T And after cross country also. T-T Though i did learn something, i still think it was raelly dumb. lol.
After class, went out with a few Thor peeps. Finally went to Taipan. (: SUPER CHEAP SIA! $6 per person leh. And super nice food too, may i add. (: Kudos to Brendan and Wenxin who went everywhere to get ZiFeng's cake. (:
Super fun.
And after that Wenxin, Steven, Weiyi and I went back to school to chill while i went for training. Before that, we were all talking really heart to heart at the canteen, and after steven fell asleep, we totally did stupid stuff to him. Hahahahaha. :P Super Super Fun!
Though i did something totally embarrasing i shouldnt have done. T-T
I think VJ has seriously made me crazier by one notch man.
Oh dear. LOL.
Training was mainly some light throws and all.
Everyone was seriously zapped of energy.
Sigh. Thank Goodness training ended early.
After training i washed up and went out for dinner with a few Thor peeps.
Brendan, Wenxin, Weiyi, Claire and Derong.
We went to where the OG started getting close-Just noodles at Suntec. (:
The 6 of us really talked ALOT and chitchatted and really bonded alot. (:
Super fun sia.
Made fun of each other, talk about life...
(: really found my family in VJ.
Somehow, whenever im with my OG, i feel a sense of acceptance and familiarity.
Like we dont have anything to hide and we can just be ourselves.
And for once in VJ,
I sang.
I sang with my real voice, with a little something of what im fully capable of.
I felt comfortable enough to do it.
And i dont know, but im not the only one who feels this way. (:
Its just really like a family.
Thank God for such an awesome OG. (:
The Best OG of my life. Seriously (:
Thor 1!
I started the day with Cross Country. T-T
Started at the back of the pack, overtook alot of ppl, and still ended up facing a WHOLE big group of people crammed up infront of me. T-T Then i gave up trying to overtake. Haha. Didnt push myself as hard as i did during PE. Walked a little, but lest then 400m. The most hardworking thrower. Haha. Then at the end of the race, i wanted to just give up. but Wenxin ran beside me and waited for me and cheered me on and that was so awesome, really. She helped me push myself to sprint the last lap and that was really awesome. (:
Thanks Wenxin. (:
After that was just mass dances, cheers and prize presentation. Lol. Pegasus didnt do too well. Mainly because we dont exacly have many sports peeps i think. Ah well. (: I wasnt at all put down by the results because its not our fault all the crossers arent from pegasus. So why freak out, panic or be demoralised? There's still time to catch up. (: GO PEGASUS!
Anyway. After cross was stupid bio tutorial. T-T Which was totally UGHHH. T-T I think its a really dumb reason to make us make up a lesson that wasnt our fault to miss. T-T And after cross country also. T-T Though i did learn something, i still think it was raelly dumb. lol.
After class, went out with a few Thor peeps. Finally went to Taipan. (: SUPER CHEAP SIA! $6 per person leh. And super nice food too, may i add. (: Kudos to Brendan and Wenxin who went everywhere to get ZiFeng's cake. (:
Super fun.
And after that Wenxin, Steven, Weiyi and I went back to school to chill while i went for training. Before that, we were all talking really heart to heart at the canteen, and after steven fell asleep, we totally did stupid stuff to him. Hahahahaha. :P Super Super Fun!
Though i did something totally embarrasing i shouldnt have done. T-T
I think VJ has seriously made me crazier by one notch man.
Oh dear. LOL.
Training was mainly some light throws and all.
Everyone was seriously zapped of energy.
Sigh. Thank Goodness training ended early.
After training i washed up and went out for dinner with a few Thor peeps.
Brendan, Wenxin, Weiyi, Claire and Derong.
We went to where the OG started getting close-Just noodles at Suntec. (:
The 6 of us really talked ALOT and chitchatted and really bonded alot. (:
Super fun sia.
Made fun of each other, talk about life...
(: really found my family in VJ.
Somehow, whenever im with my OG, i feel a sense of acceptance and familiarity.
Like we dont have anything to hide and we can just be ourselves.
And for once in VJ,
I sang.
I sang with my real voice, with a little something of what im fully capable of.
I felt comfortable enough to do it.
And i dont know, but im not the only one who feels this way. (:
Its just really like a family.
Thank God for such an awesome OG. (:
The Best OG of my life. Seriously (:
Thor 1!
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Home Based Learning
I hate to admit it, but Home Based Learning was fun! ^-^
either that, or im just easily amused. Hehehe.
The teacher speaking over the net so quickly just tickles my amusement, seriously. O my goodness! So fuN!!! ^_^ I was utterly amused by it. :P The class totally went mad during all the Dimdims. LOL. Spaming the chat room, talking rubbish, leading a discussion into very extreme crazy directions. Like how taking a bus to jurong is supposed to save some guy $10, but we led it to the money being saved to eat chicken rice, get bnaged by a bus, and God knows what. SUPER FUN! ^-^
Well Well.
I still think im a quiet person. :P
But seems like the whole world seems to disagree.
lol. Try la. Try la.
One day i shall keep quiet. :D Haha
See what happens.
I very noisy meh. T-T
Ah well.
Its been so crazy these few days.
The weather has been crazy and i couldnt compete on wed for shot putt. :( I was soooooooooo sad cos i felt really good about my throws that day and i really really wanted to throw. Apparantly, many people signed up for their events but most didnt turn up. T-T How odd. Scared ah. Lol. Im not even scary la pls. Check out my fierce photo:
Haha. Got this when Caleb Kay wanted to get a nonya boon shot at macs. :P *sigh...* the good ol Musical days.. (:Anyway. Not scary right! :( Why do Victorians think my fierce look very scary? Haha. No big deal la. :P haha. Bet its just for fun. x) Chased Brendan everywhere one OG dinner cos i gave him the stare. haha. Its odd isnt it, i have the stare in Fmss, and i have a stare in VJ. HAHA! Different ones though. Oh wait. The fmss stare is called 'The Face' HAHA! Man. I really miss yellow and blue. :(
Anyway.
Life's been full of interesting events.
Its hard to explain but its just full of intersting events. Different ppl, different culture, different friends. Indeed, a 180 turnaround from what i knew as my world. But i'm dealing with it. (: im handling it. Im surviving. Im here and smiling and kicking. (: haha. (: It gets hard once in awhile, but i'll deal with it somehow.
I managed to catch P.Andy on Tues when i went to PL to find dad. We wanted to talk and catch up and there's like sooooooooo much i wanna tell P.Andy cos the last time we caught up was... lol. last year? 2 years ago? *sigh...* Its amazing how much we talk and how indepth we go. (: I really enjoy talking to P.Andy cos i can be real, he understands and he genuinely cares. (: Its so awesome that he's the pastor in charge of Z2 when i just stepped into Z2. Its like a familiar face. (: Haha. Thank God for that. (:
Ah well.
Tmr's cross country and im not exacly looking forward to it.
Tmr im also going out with my OG and i am TOTALLY looking forward to it! :D
Except that my stupid tutor insists on a make up class after cross country as well as TRAINING. T-T Why are they so hard core, seriously. I kinda miss haoyi cos i had the freedom to do what i wanted to. :( *sigh...*
Happy Birthday haoyi, btw.
One of the Bestest coach ever. (:
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Random tests. :D
Your EQ is 133
You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others.
Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
You are warm and open.
Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges.
You are comfortable with who you are.
And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others.
While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up.
But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.
What Flavor Jelly Bean Are You?
You Are a Peach Jelly Bean
You have a distinct style that you don't really have to work for. You're genuinely quirky, and people love your understated charm.
What Kind of Juice Are You?
You Are Carrot Juice
You are a warm, cooperative person. You work well with others.While you have a fairly strong personality, you don't have a lot of clashes and conflicts.You are ambitious, but not ruthlessly so. You won't step on anybody's feet to get to the top.You are successful, and all your success has come while looking out for others.
What Color Traffic Light Are You?
You Are a Red Light
You take life at a slow pace. Life is long, so what's the rush?You are very selective. You don't make a decision until you're sure it's the right one.You have amassed some wisdom in your life, and you put it to good use. You don't act rashly.You are fair and impartial. People can count on you to do the right thing, even if you take some time to figure out what that is.
What's Your Ideal Career?
Your Career Type: Enterprising
You are energetic, ambitious, and sociable.Your talents lie in politics, leading people, and selling things or ideas.You would make an excellent:Auctioneer - Bank President - Camp DirectorCity Manager - Judge - LawyerRecreation Leader - Real Estate Agent - Sales PersonSchool Principal - Travel Agent - TV Newscaster
The worst career options for your are investigative careers, like mathematician or architect.
What Should Your Superpower Be?
Your Superpower Should Be Manipulating Fire
You are intense, internally driven, and passionate.Your emotions are unpredictable - and they often get the better of you.Both radiant and terrifying, people are drawn to you.At your most powerful, you feel like the world belongs to you.Why you would be a good superhero: You are obsessive enough to give it your allYour biggest problem as a superhero: Your moodiness would make it difficult to control your powers
What Font Are You?
You Are Times New Roman
You are formal and conservative. You're concerned with how you appear to others.For you, maintaining a good reputation is important. You want people to trust you.Elegant and classy, you always maintain your composure. You are never crass.You are professional, competent, and upstanding. And it shows!
What Dessert Are You Most Like?
You Are Tiramisu!
Light and lovely, you pack a punch.You never overwhelm... but you always leave a lasting
impression.
You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others.
Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
You are warm and open.
Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges.
You are comfortable with who you are.
And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others.
While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up.
But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.
What Flavor Jelly Bean Are You?
You Are a Peach Jelly Bean
You have a distinct style that you don't really have to work for. You're genuinely quirky, and people love your understated charm.
What Kind of Juice Are You?
You Are Carrot Juice
You are a warm, cooperative person. You work well with others.While you have a fairly strong personality, you don't have a lot of clashes and conflicts.You are ambitious, but not ruthlessly so. You won't step on anybody's feet to get to the top.You are successful, and all your success has come while looking out for others.
What Color Traffic Light Are You?
You Are a Red Light
You take life at a slow pace. Life is long, so what's the rush?You are very selective. You don't make a decision until you're sure it's the right one.You have amassed some wisdom in your life, and you put it to good use. You don't act rashly.You are fair and impartial. People can count on you to do the right thing, even if you take some time to figure out what that is.
What's Your Ideal Career?
Your Career Type: Enterprising
You are energetic, ambitious, and sociable.Your talents lie in politics, leading people, and selling things or ideas.You would make an excellent:Auctioneer - Bank President - Camp DirectorCity Manager - Judge - LawyerRecreation Leader - Real Estate Agent - Sales PersonSchool Principal - Travel Agent - TV Newscaster
The worst career options for your are investigative careers, like mathematician or architect.
What Should Your Superpower Be?
Your Superpower Should Be Manipulating Fire
You are intense, internally driven, and passionate.Your emotions are unpredictable - and they often get the better of you.Both radiant and terrifying, people are drawn to you.At your most powerful, you feel like the world belongs to you.Why you would be a good superhero: You are obsessive enough to give it your allYour biggest problem as a superhero: Your moodiness would make it difficult to control your powers
What Font Are You?
You Are Times New Roman
You are formal and conservative. You're concerned with how you appear to others.For you, maintaining a good reputation is important. You want people to trust you.Elegant and classy, you always maintain your composure. You are never crass.You are professional, competent, and upstanding. And it shows!
What Dessert Are You Most Like?
You Are Tiramisu!
Light and lovely, you pack a punch.You never overwhelm... but you always leave a lasting
impression.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
An Email. A Reminder.
We complain about the cross we bear but don't realize it is preparing us for the dip in the road that God can see and we cannot.
Whatever your cross, whatever your pain,
there will always be sunshine, after the rain....
Perhaps you may stumble, perhaps even fall;
But God's always ready, to answer your call.....
He knows every heartache, sees every tear,
a word from His lips, can calm every fear...
Your sorrows may linger, throughout the night,
But suddenly vanish, by dawn's early light...
The Savior is waiting, somewhere above,
to give you His grace,
and send you His love.
This email was sent by a friend.
And this email was sent to encourage me at a very timely time.
I was extremely encouraged and God touched my heart.
Its a reminder to us all that simply knowing God is not enough.
We need to carry our cross all the way.
The full cross.
(: haha. Hope you've been blessed.
Thanks Adriel for the email. (:
Monday, February 23, 2009
Not good...
I think my throwing is deproving. :(
I dont know what happened but ever since 2 fridays ago, i've been struggling with my throws. My reaction is way off and it seems im really struggling to get my body in line with training. I dont know whats happening to me and it relaly sucks esp when i want to improve so badly. :(
My coach was telling a few of us about how some people are just born strong.
It was then i realised that im not big enough to be a great thrower.
I wasnt born especially strong, but i was born stronger than average.
I dont know and i dont blame God. But you know i just cant help thinking about how things would be if i were bigger, if i were stronger. But then again, if i were any huger, i wouldnt look as fantastic as i do now. So.. I dont know. Its just a mix of fantasy plus the desire to win.
I have a great build, though one of the smallest for a thrower.
I have strength, though not the speed nor the technique good enough to aid the strength.
But most of all, i have God. And he never fails me.
Indeed, God has a plan for me. I dont know what but right now, i need to trust God. Its not easy considering all the odds starting to come against me. But i know that my God is greater than all. So what do i fear? What should i fear? But have faith that God knows what he's doing.
I may or may not be the best in the world.
I will strive to be the best in the world.
But for now,
for this year.
Being a champion in Asia would be awesome.
I want to stand on the podium and receive my medal.
I want to hear the national anthem played in my honour and in my glory that belongs to God.
I want to make my parents and friends proud of me.
ANd im not gonna let any setbacks stop me.
Training is super hard and intensive.
But im not giving up.
Im gonna give it my all.
I am an athlete.
And i have God as my guide.
I dont know what happened but ever since 2 fridays ago, i've been struggling with my throws. My reaction is way off and it seems im really struggling to get my body in line with training. I dont know whats happening to me and it relaly sucks esp when i want to improve so badly. :(
My coach was telling a few of us about how some people are just born strong.
It was then i realised that im not big enough to be a great thrower.
I wasnt born especially strong, but i was born stronger than average.
I dont know and i dont blame God. But you know i just cant help thinking about how things would be if i were bigger, if i were stronger. But then again, if i were any huger, i wouldnt look as fantastic as i do now. So.. I dont know. Its just a mix of fantasy plus the desire to win.
I have a great build, though one of the smallest for a thrower.
I have strength, though not the speed nor the technique good enough to aid the strength.
But most of all, i have God. And he never fails me.
For i know the plans i have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11
Indeed, God has a plan for me. I dont know what but right now, i need to trust God. Its not easy considering all the odds starting to come against me. But i know that my God is greater than all. So what do i fear? What should i fear? But have faith that God knows what he's doing.
I may or may not be the best in the world.
I will strive to be the best in the world.
But for now,
for this year.
Being a champion in Asia would be awesome.
I want to stand on the podium and receive my medal.
I want to hear the national anthem played in my honour and in my glory that belongs to God.
I want to make my parents and friends proud of me.
ANd im not gonna let any setbacks stop me.
Training is super hard and intensive.
But im not giving up.
Im gonna give it my all.
I am an athlete.
And i have God as my guide.
Mugger School. T-T
You know previously i said i prayed my class starts mugging?
I totally take that back.
OMG.
I pray the school stops mugging. Seriously!
Omg...
The school is darn mugger la!!! Omg....
Its my 3rd week of school and im already mugging like i was for O levels la!!! Omg...
And everyone's like mugging.
And teachers are chasing us for work and all and telling us we dont have time cos we started school late.
Then we have projects.
Yes. PROJECTS.
And i had to do some 3-D Bio protein model by the weekend.
I wanted to murder the teacehr.
Seriously.
GOD SAVE ME!
WHY AM I IN A MUGGER SCHOOL?!?!
I feel so darn stupid now la.
Walao...
I totally take that back.
OMG.
I pray the school stops mugging. Seriously!
Omg...
The school is darn mugger la!!! Omg....
Its my 3rd week of school and im already mugging like i was for O levels la!!! Omg...
And everyone's like mugging.
And teachers are chasing us for work and all and telling us we dont have time cos we started school late.
Then we have projects.
Yes. PROJECTS.
And i had to do some 3-D Bio protein model by the weekend.
I wanted to murder the teacehr.
Seriously.
GOD SAVE ME!
WHY AM I IN A MUGGER SCHOOL?!?!
I feel so darn stupid now la.
Walao...
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Drained
I was super moody today in school.
Just felt quite checked out and tired and very worn out.
I suddenly started missing everyone today. :(
Everyone of my fairfield commrades, and it felt like my old life was so far away...
I smsed Binkai telling him i missed him. :(
Cos i really did.
I missed amy and ryan too! :(
All my crazy ppl...
I didnt miss Jumana so much cos i've been in touch with her...
But i really missed everyone! :(
And after that, in the afternoon, Jumana smsed to say she missed me..
Whats with today?
Why are emotions running so high for no reason?
:( I really really really miss everyone and everything of my secondary school life.
Vj has been treating me well.
Very well.
But i've been so drained...
So tired...
I dont know why... :(
Just felt quite checked out and tired and very worn out.
I suddenly started missing everyone today. :(
Everyone of my fairfield commrades, and it felt like my old life was so far away...
I smsed Binkai telling him i missed him. :(
Cos i really did.
I missed amy and ryan too! :(
All my crazy ppl...
I didnt miss Jumana so much cos i've been in touch with her...
But i really missed everyone! :(
And after that, in the afternoon, Jumana smsed to say she missed me..
Whats with today?
Why are emotions running so high for no reason?
:( I really really really miss everyone and everything of my secondary school life.
Vj has been treating me well.
Very well.
But i've been so drained...
So tired...
I dont know why... :(
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
The three awesome ladies! :D Haha.
In Sec school uniform. :P
The last day we could wear it. :( :)
AH WELL.
School has been super fun so far.
The class is really bonding tgt and though there are prominant cliques in the class, the class is still united as we still mix around rather much and the class always sticks tgt. The class is like super happening la!
Other than always being the noisiest class during lectures, we are planning sooooo many things to do as a class. All the fun stupid things. ^-^ YAY! :D
Well, we started wearing the VJ uniform this week!
ITS SO FUN!!!!
But my skirts are a tad short cos the lady cut abit too much and the slit is really short but the ladt said it looked better that way. T-T Upon closer inspection, i think the skirt looks better with a longer slit and i wished i had made it a little longer. Darn. Should have trusted my instincts again. T-T Ah well. My skirt's not THAT short la. Its 4 fingers above the knee. Still longer than shorts so... *shrugs*. Ah well. Live with it. Its quite comfortable anyway. (: Just not used to it yet la. Try wearing knee length flare skirts for your whole life. Heh. Its quite a difference.
School's been fun la.
I LOVE LECTURES!
And totally hate tutorials.
I pray my tutors get better.
And i pray my class starts mugging. Haha.
We're all seriously still orientation mood la can.
If at any point you ask me to do a cheer, i serioously would drop everythihng and just do it la! HAHA! Or maybe thats normal for Hannah.
Hmmmm....
(Which explains the cheerleading bear from the 3Js)
HAHA!.
Ah well. (:
I love VJ!
Monday, February 16, 2009
Saturday
Hello!
Last sat was quite a disaster, yet a miracle.
Last sat was the 2nd all comers meet, and i went for it.
My event went terribly wrong.
I just wasnt up to it.
Just the day before, almost every single throw was a 11m.
And on sat, my furthest was only 10.46m.
What a disaster.
Even my competitors didnt want to congratulate me because they knew it wasnt my best and even they expected more from me.
Well, i was actually really touched by that. (: It was a breathe of fresh air and i really appreciated them not congratulating me. It showed me that they cared for me beyond a competitor, but as a person, as a friend. Though we are opponents, they still wanted the best for me. And that, is awesome sportsmanship.
Joanne and Jaime were ultimate losers.
They totally mixed up their event timings and hence missed both the shot putt events. Lol.
What jokers man. Seriously.
*sigh...*
Sorely missing an awesome senior like me. :D
Anyway.
I felt quite sad about my performance and after the competition, i had a long discussion with my coach. Well, we came up with a few conclusions.
1. Now we know I need at least one day's rest.
2. The problem with my throwing is my technique. My strength is more than sufficient.
3. I can peak twice in a year. LOL!
Oh well.
I guess it was a blessing in disguise. Better to make mistakes while i still have time to correct them than make them and cost me much during a prestigious competition. Dont you think? Haha. (: Thank God anyways. (:
After competition, i went to watch my sis for awhile. She's actually pretty good. Needs to work more on her technique though. Haha. (:
After that, we went to church. My mum picked us up and we reached church slightly late but just on time. Haha. (: Well, i stepped into service extremely depressed. I dont know why. But as the praise started, i decided to praise the Lord agaisnt all odds. It was hard and i was about to burst into tears. But as i jumped and praised the Lord, my heart burst into joy and hope. and Something changed. Like a burden was lifted from my shoulders.
Worship was really awesome esp with the launch of the new song. God's presence was so prominant, so tangible, so powerful. I fell to my knees and broke down in the presence of God. Where i found protection, love, and comfort. Freedom to show how i feel, freedom to share what my heart felt. I felt the powerful presence of God. I knew what i was missing- God.
Through the sermon, God led me to many things. When sis raine spoke about Moses being the man in the lead, the man that led the ppl of Isreal, the man that had to lift his staff to show the direction to go, the man who rose to lead the ppl, I felt the Lord tug at my heart. Somehow, i felt that the Lord was telling me that i was that moses. I was placed in his situation. I had a people with no direction, with no God. And here i am, a christian wanting to do something great for God.
Its quite interesting when i think about it, the past 2 weeks, i havent been offered or given or volunteered or actually self-volunteered to take up any leadership roles. Its so amazing. Perhaps God has intended for me to lead in other areas i have yet to have seen.
Thinking back about that too, Its been a rather interesting week.
During the week, I've been exposed to different ones that are christian, different ones who are not. Several christians that i sense really have a thing going on with God, and i sense 1 word while conversing with them- Destiny.
Mr Melvin Tan also approached me on the track cell thing we used to have. And he wants to start it again. Apparantly, there are alot of christians in Vj and we saw many salvations last year. And he's gonna call for another meeting. Perhaps i was meant to be the leader of that cell? I dont know. But somehow, there's a calling. And im about to answer the call.
Indeed, during the service as i seeked the Lord, as the Lord found me before i found him, i found the refreshing of my spirit. I found realignment. I have been astray ever since i stepped into VJ. My priorities and courage shaken. But as the Lord encountered me, he reminded me to stick to my principals. To my love for him. And to hold on to the promises that he has made to me. He will pave the way for me. And that i have found favour with the Lord.
After all, isnt favour with the Lord more important than favour with men?
Ah Lord God.
Help me to trust in you in Faith. Help me to be bold in worshipping you in school. Allow me to encounter you in my own times in VJ, just as i have in Fairfield. Lord, i believe for great things to happen. And Lord, pave the way, and go before us all. For what result will a battle end with unless the Lord is with me?
Last sat was quite a disaster, yet a miracle.
Last sat was the 2nd all comers meet, and i went for it.
My event went terribly wrong.
I just wasnt up to it.
Just the day before, almost every single throw was a 11m.
And on sat, my furthest was only 10.46m.
What a disaster.
Even my competitors didnt want to congratulate me because they knew it wasnt my best and even they expected more from me.
Well, i was actually really touched by that. (: It was a breathe of fresh air and i really appreciated them not congratulating me. It showed me that they cared for me beyond a competitor, but as a person, as a friend. Though we are opponents, they still wanted the best for me. And that, is awesome sportsmanship.
Joanne and Jaime were ultimate losers.
They totally mixed up their event timings and hence missed both the shot putt events. Lol.
What jokers man. Seriously.
*sigh...*
Sorely missing an awesome senior like me. :D
Anyway.
I felt quite sad about my performance and after the competition, i had a long discussion with my coach. Well, we came up with a few conclusions.
1. Now we know I need at least one day's rest.
2. The problem with my throwing is my technique. My strength is more than sufficient.
3. I can peak twice in a year. LOL!
Oh well.
I guess it was a blessing in disguise. Better to make mistakes while i still have time to correct them than make them and cost me much during a prestigious competition. Dont you think? Haha. (: Thank God anyways. (:
After competition, i went to watch my sis for awhile. She's actually pretty good. Needs to work more on her technique though. Haha. (:
After that, we went to church. My mum picked us up and we reached church slightly late but just on time. Haha. (: Well, i stepped into service extremely depressed. I dont know why. But as the praise started, i decided to praise the Lord agaisnt all odds. It was hard and i was about to burst into tears. But as i jumped and praised the Lord, my heart burst into joy and hope. and Something changed. Like a burden was lifted from my shoulders.
Worship was really awesome esp with the launch of the new song. God's presence was so prominant, so tangible, so powerful. I fell to my knees and broke down in the presence of God. Where i found protection, love, and comfort. Freedom to show how i feel, freedom to share what my heart felt. I felt the powerful presence of God. I knew what i was missing- God.
Through the sermon, God led me to many things. When sis raine spoke about Moses being the man in the lead, the man that led the ppl of Isreal, the man that had to lift his staff to show the direction to go, the man who rose to lead the ppl, I felt the Lord tug at my heart. Somehow, i felt that the Lord was telling me that i was that moses. I was placed in his situation. I had a people with no direction, with no God. And here i am, a christian wanting to do something great for God.
Its quite interesting when i think about it, the past 2 weeks, i havent been offered or given or volunteered or actually self-volunteered to take up any leadership roles. Its so amazing. Perhaps God has intended for me to lead in other areas i have yet to have seen.
Thinking back about that too, Its been a rather interesting week.
During the week, I've been exposed to different ones that are christian, different ones who are not. Several christians that i sense really have a thing going on with God, and i sense 1 word while conversing with them- Destiny.
Mr Melvin Tan also approached me on the track cell thing we used to have. And he wants to start it again. Apparantly, there are alot of christians in Vj and we saw many salvations last year. And he's gonna call for another meeting. Perhaps i was meant to be the leader of that cell? I dont know. But somehow, there's a calling. And im about to answer the call.
Indeed, during the service as i seeked the Lord, as the Lord found me before i found him, i found the refreshing of my spirit. I found realignment. I have been astray ever since i stepped into VJ. My priorities and courage shaken. But as the Lord encountered me, he reminded me to stick to my principals. To my love for him. And to hold on to the promises that he has made to me. He will pave the way for me. And that i have found favour with the Lord.
After all, isnt favour with the Lord more important than favour with men?
Ah Lord God.
Help me to trust in you in Faith. Help me to be bold in worshipping you in school. Allow me to encounter you in my own times in VJ, just as i have in Fairfield. Lord, i believe for great things to happen. And Lord, pave the way, and go before us all. For what result will a battle end with unless the Lord is with me?
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
1st day of school! :D
HELLO!
Today was the first day of school!!!
Like the real real stuff. Hahaha.
WE started classes for real today. (:
Other than it being a little boring, i think the day was actually quite interesting.
All the J1s are still in orientation mode, everyone's still REALLY blur and taking SUPER long to do their work. It seems like all the O level stuff has been thrown out the window! Hahahah!
Super funny la!
Thankfully, my brain's still working a little faster and im actually managing to get some stuff into my head. haha. Ah well. Its really interesting la. Needa get back on the study track. *sigh...*
On the bright side, my class is SUPER HAPPENING CAN!
Ok. Maybe its not exacly a good thing, BUT it is a great thing that im now just a normal student! ^-^ I dont have to be such a rule follower goody-two-shoes anymore! ^-^
Ah well.
During our first lecture, CHEM lecture, which was more like physics, lol, my class kenna scolding! HAha! Super funny can! We were sooooooo caught up trying to figure our questions out that we made SOOOOOo much noise. And when the teacher wanted to continue, we didnt realise till she shouted at us. HAHA! It was actually quite funny. :P
The Chem tutor is kinda on the dull side but i hope things get better. Well, she'll only be with us for what. Two months or term or whatever. Its kinda hard to understand her, but thankfully, she's still covering the O levels syllabus. Like empiriacal formula. T-T How hard is that.
My GP teacher's AWESOME! :D:D:D
She's like suuuuuuuuuper hip can. Walao. Hahahaha.
:D
Ah well.
I am getting to know the class ppl more, though i still seem to be hanging out with the normal ppl. But ah well. Best to belong somewhere first, right? Thank God for the friends i have so far. Really. (:
Training was quite bad today, i think.
For the first time ever, my arm gave way totally during bench press.
Thank GOD my coach was the one supporting me. I doubt anyone else could have saved me from myself.
I was doing 77.5kg bench and by the 3rd rep, my left arm totally gave way, i couldnt push anymore and a pain shot right through my left arm. What am i supposed to do? I was silently screaming for my coach to pull the bar up for awhile. haha. It was quite bad. really. I was kinda disappointed with myself. hehe.
But other than that, my body's used to VJ's training already so, thats looking well, i guess. Haha. Getting closer to the track team and that's seriously awesome. :D yay! hahaha. Im really looking forward to my future with VJ.
And oh.
I openly talked about God today. :D
Great start! :D yay!
Ah well.
More to say soon! ^-^
Cant wait for all comers this sat. ;)
Meet all my thrower friends again! :D
Today was the first day of school!!!
Like the real real stuff. Hahaha.
WE started classes for real today. (:
Other than it being a little boring, i think the day was actually quite interesting.
All the J1s are still in orientation mode, everyone's still REALLY blur and taking SUPER long to do their work. It seems like all the O level stuff has been thrown out the window! Hahahah!
Super funny la!
Thankfully, my brain's still working a little faster and im actually managing to get some stuff into my head. haha. Ah well. Its really interesting la. Needa get back on the study track. *sigh...*
On the bright side, my class is SUPER HAPPENING CAN!
Ok. Maybe its not exacly a good thing, BUT it is a great thing that im now just a normal student! ^-^ I dont have to be such a rule follower goody-two-shoes anymore! ^-^
Ah well.
During our first lecture, CHEM lecture, which was more like physics, lol, my class kenna scolding! HAha! Super funny can! We were sooooooo caught up trying to figure our questions out that we made SOOOOOo much noise. And when the teacher wanted to continue, we didnt realise till she shouted at us. HAHA! It was actually quite funny. :P
The Chem tutor is kinda on the dull side but i hope things get better. Well, she'll only be with us for what. Two months or term or whatever. Its kinda hard to understand her, but thankfully, she's still covering the O levels syllabus. Like empiriacal formula. T-T How hard is that.
My GP teacher's AWESOME! :D:D:D
She's like suuuuuuuuuper hip can. Walao. Hahahaha.
:D
Ah well.
I am getting to know the class ppl more, though i still seem to be hanging out with the normal ppl. But ah well. Best to belong somewhere first, right? Thank God for the friends i have so far. Really. (:
Training was quite bad today, i think.
For the first time ever, my arm gave way totally during bench press.
Thank GOD my coach was the one supporting me. I doubt anyone else could have saved me from myself.
I was doing 77.5kg bench and by the 3rd rep, my left arm totally gave way, i couldnt push anymore and a pain shot right through my left arm. What am i supposed to do? I was silently screaming for my coach to pull the bar up for awhile. haha. It was quite bad. really. I was kinda disappointed with myself. hehe.
But other than that, my body's used to VJ's training already so, thats looking well, i guess. Haha. Getting closer to the track team and that's seriously awesome. :D yay! hahaha. Im really looking forward to my future with VJ.
And oh.
I openly talked about God today. :D
Great start! :D yay!
Ah well.
More to say soon! ^-^
Cant wait for all comers this sat. ;)
Meet all my thrower friends again! :D
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
09S32
Hello Hello!
These 2 days i've been having class orientation and its really quite fun! :D
Found a couple of friends and we've been like sticking together already.
So thank God for that. Seriously. Haha.
Well, my class is not yet that united, but everyone's friendly and like trying to find their place in the class. We're about to select our CT rep but other than that, everyone's just being really nuetral and fun and awesome. haha.
I've been considering taking up leadership positions. Was thinking of volunteering to be part of the CT com, but im not really sure if i really want to do that. Am thinking of joining house com, but i really wonder if i can cope. Im sure i'll be one heck of a coocoo crazy house commer. Haha. SHould i join? I bet yall would say yes, but we gotta remember my track commitments are insane and im as tired as it is reaching home after training. In fact, i honestly, think i may have days i dont manage to complete my work cos im so tired. But thats what the breaks in school are for.
Received my timetable and its quite crazy, in my opinion.
But there's like so many breaks, i think i'de actually be quite thankful for them.
Hope to be able to study during those breaks.
I think i actually have to. Haha.
Well, my class has been awesome. And i hope it will continue to be that way.
We met the senior 32 class today and they did some really horrible stuff to us.
Im really quite horrified/traumatised still.
They started by making us do some really stupid stuff like jumping jacks across the corridoor while chanting 32. Omgoodness, that was indeed horrifying.
Then they planted some fake ppl in the class and those fake ppl really made a mess of the whole entire class. I nearly wanted to change class. It was THAT BAD.
But anyway. After realising those crazy ppl were a fake, things got back to normal. Aye. Thank God. Thank God.
Buying uniforms tmr with my 2 friends Chantal and Jesselyn. (: haha.
We decided to go buy it tgt. So we're going to buy it sometime tmr.
Found out a few christians in class.
Its really quite interesting how it came about.
But the ppl in the class seem quite wary of christians and what they do and stuff.
So, it may be tough, but its not impossible to spread the love of God.
Im not a natural forcer.
In fact i hate to force ppl to do things.
And esp so when it comes to religion cos its so sensitive.
What i prefer to do is to just live my life to the fullest, and making sure that God is glorified with my life. And that ppl will be impacted by the way i live my life cos that is the most important. Being and living the example is so much more important than preaching it outright. Because only when you walk your talk, then your intergrity is not questioned, and the love of God is not wavered in any way.
I guess i need to grow in the area of standing out and speaking out for my faith.
And its not easy, really. But i dont wanna see my friends live life w/o Jesus. So empty, so hurt, so lonely, so purposeless. I want my friends to live life to the full. Just as i am.
God, im here, clueless.
Come hold my hand and guide me, wont you?
These 2 days i've been having class orientation and its really quite fun! :D
Found a couple of friends and we've been like sticking together already.
So thank God for that. Seriously. Haha.
Well, my class is not yet that united, but everyone's friendly and like trying to find their place in the class. We're about to select our CT rep but other than that, everyone's just being really nuetral and fun and awesome. haha.
I've been considering taking up leadership positions. Was thinking of volunteering to be part of the CT com, but im not really sure if i really want to do that. Am thinking of joining house com, but i really wonder if i can cope. Im sure i'll be one heck of a coocoo crazy house commer. Haha. SHould i join? I bet yall would say yes, but we gotta remember my track commitments are insane and im as tired as it is reaching home after training. In fact, i honestly, think i may have days i dont manage to complete my work cos im so tired. But thats what the breaks in school are for.
Received my timetable and its quite crazy, in my opinion.
But there's like so many breaks, i think i'de actually be quite thankful for them.
Hope to be able to study during those breaks.
I think i actually have to. Haha.
Well, my class has been awesome. And i hope it will continue to be that way.
We met the senior 32 class today and they did some really horrible stuff to us.
Im really quite horrified/traumatised still.
They started by making us do some really stupid stuff like jumping jacks across the corridoor while chanting 32. Omgoodness, that was indeed horrifying.
Then they planted some fake ppl in the class and those fake ppl really made a mess of the whole entire class. I nearly wanted to change class. It was THAT BAD.
But anyway. After realising those crazy ppl were a fake, things got back to normal. Aye. Thank God. Thank God.
Buying uniforms tmr with my 2 friends Chantal and Jesselyn. (: haha.
We decided to go buy it tgt. So we're going to buy it sometime tmr.
Found out a few christians in class.
Its really quite interesting how it came about.
But the ppl in the class seem quite wary of christians and what they do and stuff.
So, it may be tough, but its not impossible to spread the love of God.
Im not a natural forcer.
In fact i hate to force ppl to do things.
And esp so when it comes to religion cos its so sensitive.
What i prefer to do is to just live my life to the fullest, and making sure that God is glorified with my life. And that ppl will be impacted by the way i live my life cos that is the most important. Being and living the example is so much more important than preaching it outright. Because only when you walk your talk, then your intergrity is not questioned, and the love of God is not wavered in any way.
I guess i need to grow in the area of standing out and speaking out for my faith.
And its not easy, really. But i dont wanna see my friends live life w/o Jesus. So empty, so hurt, so lonely, so purposeless. I want my friends to live life to the full. Just as i am.
God, im here, clueless.
Come hold my hand and guide me, wont you?
Sunday, February 8, 2009
VJC Come on come on come on!
Oh well.
HELLO!
HELLO!
CHECK OUT MY BAD SUNBURN!
The joke on friday was that if i had a crest on my forehead, i'de be JUSTICE BAO! HAHA!
But then my friend said i was too red to be justice bao cos he's black.
So i'm more like guan gong! haha!
What a joke.
Ahwell. Its been awhile since i've blogged a good serious post cos well, i've been super busy + tired. Orientation ends late and after that is either training or dinner. Heh. Go figure.
So by the time i reach home, its either 10-11pm, or i'm too darn tired to do anything else. Hence, i sleep, and skip using my com. haha. :D
So anyway.
Orientation was AWESOME! :D
I actually ran onstange once to lead the school in cheer.
hah. Not bad right.
But i tottally embarrassed myself a few times.
ANd i kept hiding from the sun in many ways by the end of orientation.
Behind sleeves, under shadows.. haha. Ah well.
Well.
Orientation was super fun thanks to my awesome Group Thor1!
The OG Thor was awesome too. ahah. But apparantly, my group was one of the most totally enthu group. So thats really great. :D We kept playing hand games and that was really really fun. :D So... Hahahaha. :D
I think my group really bonded and we all really had alot of fun. I'de love to recount every single moment but i dont really feel like doing so. Heh.
Well, We played lots of games and the games we played are like super fun.
And i'de love to recount all the moments but there's just too many!
The mass dances are SUUUUPER FUN MAN!
Though they totally rushed through all the dances, but it was still fun while it lasted. Hahaha.
Whiney whiney whiney woo! :D
Well,
I've got my class and its 32. Whatever that means.
I dont know anyone yet, but i pray and hope that my class peeps are awesome and that my teacher is awesome too. :D Tutor, i mean. lol.
Well, I find VJ ppl really really really friendly!
I get to know ppl from everywhere. Literally!
From sitting beside them in the hall, from being in the same large OG, from random aquaintances to even lining up for the toilet! As long as you've seen them once, just smile and vuala! You're friends! How cool is that!
And like even if you have met only once or something, they'll continue to say hi and have small talks every time you meet. Its so heart warming i couldnt ask for better. (:
What an awesome school.
Looking forward to getting to know my class and doing God's will! :D
GO VJC!
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Monday, February 2, 2009
IM A VICTORIAN!
SO!
Today was my first day of school at VJC.
I was actually quite lonely, but i didnt feel the loneliness.
I guess God's presence was there.
(:
God was nice enough to send me a friend i was acquainted to by chance a week ago at the dsa/appeal briefing in vj. And we chit chatted and hung out for awhile until he had to leave cos he wasnt yet supposed to join the orientation. So after that, i was alone. And i was actually quite fine with that. (: Haha.
Well, after collection of packages and really awesome stuff, we had a rather long briefing by many ppl. Principals and HOD telling us more about the school and subjects that we could choose to take. Sort of have an idea, but not quite done choosing yet. *sigh...*
Anyway. After that we were to change and meet in the hall to meet our OGs. The girls took horrendously long to change and i ended up queuing for like 50mins just to change, okay. My goodness. They need to come to Fairfield. HAHA.
But anyway.
I wont say how i felt with my group cos i think i shouldnt be saying bad things bout them. So i wont. ahha. They're not bad la. Just different. Different from FMSS, different from the methodist ppl. DIFFERENT LA, OK. Ya. So i felt kind of wierd in the beginning but i guess a few sudden spurts of my randomness started something going and we all started warming up. So thats a good thing, i guess.
We had like indepth briefing on some subjects and i went with my OG mates for Econs History and Geog. And honestly, im super tempted to take geog now. HAHA. (: So i just might take 1 science and 1 math instead. We'll see how it goes.
Im actually aiming for medicine or dentistry so i'de definately do math and chem. just not sure about the rest. I think its more importatn to score than to do what you think you need to help you in the U, when its not even a pre-requisite. So, gotta see how.
I think i should ban myself from looking at TSD cos my whole mind and body itches when i do. I want so badly to go for TSD, but i cant. COS OF TRACK.
Asian Youth or TSD.
I think ASIAN youth la ha.
OH YA.
UNI GOT DSA LEH!
I got hope liao. :D
Praise the Lord.
Hahahaha.
Anyway.
Towards the end of the day, we had games and my group was so awesome.
And we had cheer and cheer battles and that was SO AWESOME!
You know how i love to cheer. :D
Even better when they are fierce cheers.
I LOVEEEE. :D
The OGL are my type- CRAZY and INSANE and SUPER ENTHU!
We cheer every 5 mins, and the OGL have their own range of crazy cheer.
Its such a breath of fresh air, i think the FMSS council should learn from it. :P
I love the VJ cheers.
And then we learnt the 1st mass dance.
It was kinda rushed, but we got the gist of it, and everyone was SO INTO IT!
We were dancing with ppl we didnt know, but we still danced like a family, like we didnt care. It was so so so much fuN! :D
Whiney Whiney Whiney WOO! :D
Ah well.
Thats a summary of my first day.
Hope the rest of the Orientation will be even better! :D
Thank you GOD! :D
Today was my first day of school at VJC.
I was actually quite lonely, but i didnt feel the loneliness.
I guess God's presence was there.
(:
God was nice enough to send me a friend i was acquainted to by chance a week ago at the dsa/appeal briefing in vj. And we chit chatted and hung out for awhile until he had to leave cos he wasnt yet supposed to join the orientation. So after that, i was alone. And i was actually quite fine with that. (: Haha.
Well, after collection of packages and really awesome stuff, we had a rather long briefing by many ppl. Principals and HOD telling us more about the school and subjects that we could choose to take. Sort of have an idea, but not quite done choosing yet. *sigh...*
Anyway. After that we were to change and meet in the hall to meet our OGs. The girls took horrendously long to change and i ended up queuing for like 50mins just to change, okay. My goodness. They need to come to Fairfield. HAHA.
But anyway.
I wont say how i felt with my group cos i think i shouldnt be saying bad things bout them. So i wont. ahha. They're not bad la. Just different. Different from FMSS, different from the methodist ppl. DIFFERENT LA, OK. Ya. So i felt kind of wierd in the beginning but i guess a few sudden spurts of my randomness started something going and we all started warming up. So thats a good thing, i guess.
We had like indepth briefing on some subjects and i went with my OG mates for Econs History and Geog. And honestly, im super tempted to take geog now. HAHA. (: So i just might take 1 science and 1 math instead. We'll see how it goes.
Im actually aiming for medicine or dentistry so i'de definately do math and chem. just not sure about the rest. I think its more importatn to score than to do what you think you need to help you in the U, when its not even a pre-requisite. So, gotta see how.
I think i should ban myself from looking at TSD cos my whole mind and body itches when i do. I want so badly to go for TSD, but i cant. COS OF TRACK.
Asian Youth or TSD.
I think ASIAN youth la ha.
OH YA.
UNI GOT DSA LEH!
I got hope liao. :D
Praise the Lord.
Hahahaha.
Anyway.
Towards the end of the day, we had games and my group was so awesome.
And we had cheer and cheer battles and that was SO AWESOME!
You know how i love to cheer. :D
Even better when they are fierce cheers.
I LOVEEEE. :D
The OGL are my type- CRAZY and INSANE and SUPER ENTHU!
We cheer every 5 mins, and the OGL have their own range of crazy cheer.
Its such a breath of fresh air, i think the FMSS council should learn from it. :P
I love the VJ cheers.
And then we learnt the 1st mass dance.
It was kinda rushed, but we got the gist of it, and everyone was SO INTO IT!
We were dancing with ppl we didnt know, but we still danced like a family, like we didnt care. It was so so so much fuN! :D
Whiney Whiney Whiney WOO! :D
Ah well.
Thats a summary of my first day.
Hope the rest of the Orientation will be even better! :D
Thank you GOD! :D
So we part our seperate ways.
So this is my second goodbye.
To Fairfield.
To being a fairsian.
Miss Elaine Lim, the previous principal of Fairfield once said this to me:
"You may not have been from Fairfield Primary,
But you are a Fairsian at Heart."
I've always kept this close to my heart cos i really felt the sincereity when she said it and i have been very proud to be a fairsian.
God has held my hand and walked me through my days in Fairfield and i have seen so much of blessing and favour from both God and man. I have seen myself grow in so so so many different ways in many different events. God has used many of the things in Fairfield to teach me about life, to teach him about him, and to teach me about myself.
I have walked out of Fairfield a more mature, sensible and responsible student. And i have come to love Fairfield as my family. I have met many wonderful teachers who have made my life in Fairfield a purposeful one, and i have met even more great friends who have made my journey in Fairfield an enjoyable one. I have come to treasure each and everyone of my friends and its hard to say goodbye cos we're all going our seperate ways. And if i were to have had a proper goodbye, i'd cry till my eyes came out.
Though we promise to keep in touch, things will never be the same as it was when we were all together in the same school. Laughing at the same old jokes, making fun of each other, going out tgt, supporting each other, disturbing teachers together and going through the thick and thin together. Its just amazing to see how many great friends ive made in fairfield, when i just started out as a nobody. God made me a somebody in Fairfield. I left a legacy behind in Fairfield. And i believe God has used me to make an impact on many both teachers and students of Fairfield. (:
I was a valedictorian of my graduating batch, and because it mostly sums up my journey in Fairfield, i'd like to share my valedictorian speech to all. My famous 12 page speech. Haha. Though i believe if i had wanted to recount every single activity, it'll pass 20 pages. (:
So take your time to read if you wanna know a little more about my journey.
Or you can just leave it alone and allow me to bask in my goodbye. (:
Ok i cant find it.
I think its in the other com.
Nvm.
I Promise to load it up sometime.
Cos its relaly important to me.
Well,
I'de like to Thank all my wonderful friends who have stood by me through thick and thin when we were in Fairfield. I wanna thank you all for being patient and understanding and being such great friends. (: You all have made my journey in Fairfield so much more special and so much more unbearable to leave. If not for you all, i dont think i would have made it so far. I dont think i would be as strong as i am now. If not for some of you, i would have given up on my sports, my studies and myself. (: I'de like to give special mentions but i think there are eyes watching this space so i'de do it privately. (: But nevertheless, know that you are loved and that you all hold a very special place in my heart. Never forget me as i never forget you all and lets keep in touch, ya? (:
And to my 4E girls:
Dont forget our pack to invite each other to each other's wedding! :D
I have a good feeling that one of our girls will be the 1st to wed. Haha.
I think her name starts with E..
AH NVM. :D
Anyway. (:
To my teachers:
I just wanna thank you all for believing in me. I know i failed you all many times and it must have been rather disappointing to see me dozing off in class the day after training, hehe, thank you all for being patient and caring and for always going the extra mile to help me out with my studies. Indeed, my grades are a gift from you and i hope that i have made you proud. (: I am proud to ahve been your student and you have been a great inspiration to me. (: Thank you all for being such awesome and hip teacehrs. (:
Ah well.
It'll soon be time to say goodbye to Fairfield.
And HELLO VJ!
To Fairfield.
To being a fairsian.
Miss Elaine Lim, the previous principal of Fairfield once said this to me:
"You may not have been from Fairfield Primary,
But you are a Fairsian at Heart."
I've always kept this close to my heart cos i really felt the sincereity when she said it and i have been very proud to be a fairsian.
God has held my hand and walked me through my days in Fairfield and i have seen so much of blessing and favour from both God and man. I have seen myself grow in so so so many different ways in many different events. God has used many of the things in Fairfield to teach me about life, to teach him about him, and to teach me about myself.
I have walked out of Fairfield a more mature, sensible and responsible student. And i have come to love Fairfield as my family. I have met many wonderful teachers who have made my life in Fairfield a purposeful one, and i have met even more great friends who have made my journey in Fairfield an enjoyable one. I have come to treasure each and everyone of my friends and its hard to say goodbye cos we're all going our seperate ways. And if i were to have had a proper goodbye, i'd cry till my eyes came out.
Though we promise to keep in touch, things will never be the same as it was when we were all together in the same school. Laughing at the same old jokes, making fun of each other, going out tgt, supporting each other, disturbing teachers together and going through the thick and thin together. Its just amazing to see how many great friends ive made in fairfield, when i just started out as a nobody. God made me a somebody in Fairfield. I left a legacy behind in Fairfield. And i believe God has used me to make an impact on many both teachers and students of Fairfield. (:
I was a valedictorian of my graduating batch, and because it mostly sums up my journey in Fairfield, i'd like to share my valedictorian speech to all. My famous 12 page speech. Haha. Though i believe if i had wanted to recount every single activity, it'll pass 20 pages. (:
So take your time to read if you wanna know a little more about my journey.
Or you can just leave it alone and allow me to bask in my goodbye. (:
Ok i cant find it.
I think its in the other com.
Nvm.
I Promise to load it up sometime.
Cos its relaly important to me.
Well,
I'de like to Thank all my wonderful friends who have stood by me through thick and thin when we were in Fairfield. I wanna thank you all for being patient and understanding and being such great friends. (: You all have made my journey in Fairfield so much more special and so much more unbearable to leave. If not for you all, i dont think i would have made it so far. I dont think i would be as strong as i am now. If not for some of you, i would have given up on my sports, my studies and myself. (: I'de like to give special mentions but i think there are eyes watching this space so i'de do it privately. (: But nevertheless, know that you are loved and that you all hold a very special place in my heart. Never forget me as i never forget you all and lets keep in touch, ya? (:
And to my 4E girls:
Dont forget our pack to invite each other to each other's wedding! :D
I have a good feeling that one of our girls will be the 1st to wed. Haha.
I think her name starts with E..
AH NVM. :D
Anyway. (:
To my teachers:
I just wanna thank you all for believing in me. I know i failed you all many times and it must have been rather disappointing to see me dozing off in class the day after training, hehe, thank you all for being patient and caring and for always going the extra mile to help me out with my studies. Indeed, my grades are a gift from you and i hope that i have made you proud. (: I am proud to ahve been your student and you have been a great inspiration to me. (: Thank you all for being such awesome and hip teacehrs. (:
Ah well.
It'll soon be time to say goodbye to Fairfield.
And HELLO VJ!
Sunday, February 1, 2009
How God uses you!
You know, i finally experienced what it is to have the power of God flow through you and use you to miniser and impact the ppl of God.
Here's what happened.
Yesterday, i was supposed to lead glorify.
I had a very strong feeling of the song With Everything and God led me to prepare some stuff to say to minister to the worship min while singing the song.
I felt SUPER inadequate, okay.
I had like bad glorify experience, and like infront of super experienced musicians and super annointed leaders.. MAN! I felt so inadequate.
I felt the Lord prompt me to play the guitar on my own instead of getting someone to help me. And that makes it even worse.
I wanted to run away so bad.
I prayed so hard that there wouldnt be jam today.
I nearly cried in anxiety.
SO SCARY!!!!
But the Lord reminded me of something i read that said "When you feel the most inadequate, thats when the Lord is about to flow his power through you."
And true enough, that happened.
Before i led, i was relaly nervous.
But as i learnt from my dad, i started declaring agaisnt the insecurity and all.
Declaring that i was the chosen one to lead glorify at that point of time.
And all fear was gone.
There was a peace of a different kind resting upon me.
And i stepped up and allowed the Lord to lead me as i led.
I started playing and praying and then i started singing.
I didnt think too much on what chords i was playing, but it came out right.
I didnt focus on my strumming, but it came out super well.
My singing was better than i have ever sung.
I reached notes that i usually had to push a little harder to reach, easier than ever.
I heard my voice booming in such an annointed and angelic way i have never heard before.
I was drowned in worhsip, and i felt the prsence of God moving.
I realised, the song was indeed the song of the season.
The song was indeed the one chosen by God.
The words i had spoken were indeed that of God's.
And indeed, God had held my hand and walked me through the glorify.
I was nothing, but his vessel.
Holding in my hands a guitar.
Playing the only simple chords i knew.
I sang with all my heart.
And in its simplicity, God used it to impact the worship.
The Lord used me.
I was really amazed and in awe of what had happend after it all ended. How well i flowed with the spirit of God. How amazing his presence had been.
Its amazing.
How true it is that only when you feel the most inadequate and insecure, is when the Lord is about to let his power flow through you. Just like an empty vessel, ready to be used. (:
Here's what happened.
Yesterday, i was supposed to lead glorify.
I had a very strong feeling of the song With Everything and God led me to prepare some stuff to say to minister to the worship min while singing the song.
I felt SUPER inadequate, okay.
I had like bad glorify experience, and like infront of super experienced musicians and super annointed leaders.. MAN! I felt so inadequate.
I felt the Lord prompt me to play the guitar on my own instead of getting someone to help me. And that makes it even worse.
I wanted to run away so bad.
I prayed so hard that there wouldnt be jam today.
I nearly cried in anxiety.
SO SCARY!!!!
But the Lord reminded me of something i read that said "When you feel the most inadequate, thats when the Lord is about to flow his power through you."
And true enough, that happened.
Before i led, i was relaly nervous.
But as i learnt from my dad, i started declaring agaisnt the insecurity and all.
Declaring that i was the chosen one to lead glorify at that point of time.
And all fear was gone.
There was a peace of a different kind resting upon me.
And i stepped up and allowed the Lord to lead me as i led.
I started playing and praying and then i started singing.
I didnt think too much on what chords i was playing, but it came out right.
I didnt focus on my strumming, but it came out super well.
My singing was better than i have ever sung.
I reached notes that i usually had to push a little harder to reach, easier than ever.
I heard my voice booming in such an annointed and angelic way i have never heard before.
I was drowned in worhsip, and i felt the prsence of God moving.
I realised, the song was indeed the song of the season.
The song was indeed the one chosen by God.
The words i had spoken were indeed that of God's.
And indeed, God had held my hand and walked me through the glorify.
I was nothing, but his vessel.
Holding in my hands a guitar.
Playing the only simple chords i knew.
I sang with all my heart.
And in its simplicity, God used it to impact the worship.
The Lord used me.
I was really amazed and in awe of what had happend after it all ended. How well i flowed with the spirit of God. How amazing his presence had been.
Its amazing.
How true it is that only when you feel the most inadequate and insecure, is when the Lord is about to let his power flow through you. Just like an empty vessel, ready to be used. (:
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)