Not facing the music.

Im trying not to think about the goodbyes i'll have to make to the different ones. Everytime after an event in fairfield, when i hug someone and think "We're going our seperate ways", i never want to let go. I feel like continuing to hug the person and cry but i brace myself and stop myself from thinking about it.

I cant do it.

I cant face the music yet.

Its too much to bear.

Everytime i look at pictures taken from the past. Taken from a time we had fun or even just a moment of fun, my heart melts and just wants to break. I just want to relive the moments i've had again and never let go of that moment. I hate to think of how far i'de be from everyone and the possibility that everything will fade into nothing but a shade of memory no one remembers any longer.

Well. Im not gonna think about it.

I hate to admit it but im actually a big baby. haha. I think i'll cry on my first day of school. Maybe not in school but after school. I dont know. I'll just miss everyone so much.

Though i said that i'de feel wierd since no one from FMSS is going to VJ, then again, almost no one from PHPPS went to FMSS with me. And still... I made it through rather well, didnt i? (:

But still. Im not gonna think about the goodbyes yet.

Im not ready to face the music...