This was a song that my aunt's fanily showed during her 70th birthday party that my family and i were invited to yesterday to a 6 star restaurant. I wouldnt say i was SO impressed with the food, but the fish and the prawn and the pulut hitam w ice creamwas FREAKIN AWESOME! The best. Seriously! :P

But the service there was really really good. HAha.If i had to look for a job, i dont mind working as a waitress there. Im sure i have enough charm to carry it off. ;) Hahah. :D

But i realised i dont quite enjoy being served. Like i dont relaly like the idea of ppl having to serve or be accustomed to my needs. Sigh... Maybe i should become a humanitarian. HAHA! I think i can make it! Seriously! :P haha. Ah well..

Thursday i met Ryan after school. (: After my crappy econs test that i didnt get to study for and seriously just tried my best. it would be a miracle if i PASSED. by golly... Sigh.. Ah well.

BUT ANYWAY
I met ryan!!! :D It was so awesome seeing him again after sooooooooooo long and catching up and all. (: Its so fun! I wish he was in VJ or something. hehehe. ah well. (:

The ACJC drama was quite impressive, i must admit. The show was really long, but i enjoyed it greatly. (: The plot was good and it didnt turn lame anywhere. The dances were awesome. (: But somehow, i felt like i didnt belong to ac. (: Im really glad i went to VJ instead of AC. I think i wouldnt have enjoyed myself as much in AC than i am in VJ. (:

The Lord knows best, ya? :D

I live to worship you.

This morning, i went to school at my usual time.
I felt like playing the piano.
So since i had nothing important to place in the locker, i walked to the grand piano instead.
I sat down, and i started playing.
Though a few of the keys were a little wierd, i played with the keys that were available.

Well, i started playing the usual random stuff around the board, the usual 1645.
And suddenly, i felt like playing the bridge of How Great is our God.
So i did.
And from then on, i really felt the presence of God with me as i played.
I played on with How Great is our God.

And then God led me to another song.
And his presence was there and he spoke to me.
This are the lyrics of the song:

I Worship you
I worship you
The reason i live
Is to worship you
I worship you
I worship you
The reason i live
Is to worship you.

A simple song made out of 3 differnt lines.
As i played it, i started to sing it out in worship from my heart.
And when i reached the line "The reason i live is to wroship you", God really just spoke to me. And reminded me that my reason to live, is indeed to worship God.
Everything i do, i do it for the Lord.
Because my reason to live, is to worship God.

A great reminder. (:

Hello.
I tried a facebook test on being an ACsian and here's the results:


100% Original ACSian
You are a true blue ACSian! It's like you're born to be in AC! you are passionate about AC; you know the school inside out! you definitely had the best time of your life in there and will prob miss AC after graduating from there.

LOL.
DUDE.
IM IN VJC!
LOLLLLL.
But i was pretty much born to be somewhat an ACsian.
Wonder if anyone would think im one. :P
HSould try one day.

You know, i've been into the 'Fake first impression thing'
Its actually quite entertaining!!!
i tried to be dao..
i tried to be irritating..
i tried to be cocky.
LOL.
SUPER FUN CAN! :D
HAhahahaha. Ah well. (:

Anyway.
Like i said, Piwei's BACK! :D :D :D
Oh man i cant tell you how much i miss him.
Cos i really really do! :(
I didnt quite feel it until he came back, actually. HAha.

Let me tell you my hilarious story that happened on thursday.

After school, i was debating btw going home and going to welcome piwei back.
So in the meanwhile, i went out with Jess, Mervyn and Hung.
Well, We started by watching half the soccer match against uh.. Acsi. lol.
We won, DUH.
The cheering's kinda pathetic.
Come on. Motivate me to cheer.
Merv was making a fool out of himself during cheers. Omg. it was hilarious. I felt embarrassed sitting beside him. Like you know "OOOOOOOOoooooooooo VJ BOLEH VJ BOLEH" Cheer? He went "OOOOOOOOO... OREOOOOOOOOO.. VJ BOLEH..." Oh man.. He was the LOUDEST of the crowd sommore... Lol...

Anyway. the 4 of us finally left and went to ice cream chef.
MEERVYN led us the wrong way and obviously the lost one aka Jesselyn couldnt tell the difference.. :P Haha. I kinda figured it was the wrong way but other than that way, we had no idea. So we kept walking. We walked for like half an hour, was completely lost, then i finally decided to call wenyi-who's an ice cream chef specialist. Haha.

Then we realised, at st pats, we should have turned right instead of left. And there mervyn was insisting it was the left. T-T Sigh...

so we took a bus back to st pats, and walked to the direction of ice cream chef, and found in in abt 2mins from st pats. Oh how much i wanted to kill mervyn for making me walk SOOOOOO much esp in those unwalkable shoes of mine. Lol. Time to buy a new pair! ^-^ Or maybe get rid of that corn on my toe or something. Its really starting to bother me.

SO. Anyway.
We got our icecream.
Its horribly expensive, though i must say quite creative.
I didnt get the best of blends, but it wasnt too bad.

Talked about wierd stuff with the 3 of them.
Was still trying to decide on whether to go to the airport or not.
Finally decided to go.

So.
We left ice cream chef, played a little fool, then mervyn had a bad fall into the drain. Lol. It was really hilarious. But im too lazy to explain. haha. (:

So i left for the aiport.
I tried to call my mum cos i wasnt sure if she would allow me to go.
But she didnt answer.
So i just decided to go ahead and go to the airport. HAha.
So i hopped on a 36 and went to the airport.
So excited to see piwei. :D

Then just as i reached the airport, like right at the airport busstop, my mum told me i cant go welcome him cos it was too late. T-T i was like so dehhhhhhh can. Omg.. lol. So i called felix and i felt so apologetic about it. :(

Ah well.
So i got off anyway.
Took some pictures to justify my journey there, then i bought some food nad went home. Haha. :P So i didnt meet pi wei after all.

Thank goodness also. cos there were so many flights from melbourne i had no idea which one it was. Sigh... Ah well. (: Hahaha.

oh.
SINGAPORE IDOL'S COMING THIS YEAR!
I WANNA GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Religion vs God

God is not a religion ;-).
Religion:
1. An organized system or institution of belief based upon the traditions of men
2. The act of playing church, exchanging internal truths for external performance; substituting spiritual realities with carnal rituals.

God:
1. The pursuit of friendship with God.
2. Goes beyond what happens in church. He's part of your life in every way.

Read this somewhere
And i felt it was not too bad a comparison.
I should look for more.
Watch this space. (:
Its good revelation.

I'de rather not talk about this saturday.

Except for one thing:
PIWEI'S BACK! :D
Did i tell you the long story of my trip to pick piwei up?
I dont think so. I'll tell you some other time. (:

BORING!

Tmr there's all comers.
I just saw the start list and i have only one word to describe it.
BORING!

Aye.
All the good competitors not competing.
No fun sia....
:(

Kinda not looking forward to tmr's comp.
But then again, i really need to be excited.
So i gotta fight agaisnt the boredem and fight for my distance.
11.5m

My dad told me something relaly important today.
David defeated Goliath.

I cant let my intimidation of others break my confidence down.
After all, David defeated Goliath with God's strength.
In the same way, with faith, i can do the same thing.
God, i may just be a David, but i want to win the Goliaths in my life.
Be it distances or simply throwers themselves, Lord if i am the David, may you be my God. The God that was with David that defeated Goliath. We share the same God. And i believe if you could help David, you can help me. (: Thank you Lord in advance for what you are about to do.

Most of all, Do your will.

Struggling.

Today i wanted to have an extra session of training and throwing and the whole idea of integrating speed from a lighter shot into a heavier one was really really smart and good and intriguing and i was absolutely looking forward to having training and training myself on that. However, things didnt go the way i had hoped.

As i started throwing, a few muscles started to ache. And it wasnt like ache ache. It was a strain or a pull at a few places and it hurt so bad i had to stop throwing. And i couldnt walk properly after that.

I was relaly upset with myself cos the past few days i havent been throwing well and my body has been giving up on me once in awhile. I felt the pressure on myself building up everytime i thought about how i might not make it to the various overseas comps i wanna go so so so very badly for. :(

And when i got injured today, somewhat at least, it really took a toll on me. If not for some distractions i had when i returned to the track table, i would have gone to a corner and cry. I dont understand why im not performing as well as i should, i dont understnad why my body's starting to give up on me, i dont understnad why im slowly giving up on myself.

Its getting tiring.
It really is.

My studies arent doing so well either.
I hate the fact that i cant understand and im not putting in enough effort to try. It just sucks la. I cant seem to understand half of what im learning now, and its only the beginning. Lord, help me.
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!