Well, I was finally a GL for camp! :D
YAYYYY!!!
And camp was really really really awesome.
I had a blast, and God just blew me away.
Okay. Lets start by talking about my group.
Red Eagle 3, Hong Ying San, Hegal (Sudu) Merah Tiggah.
I love my group. And i am so so so proud of them and even prouder to be their GL.
The group started out very shaky.
On the first day, it seemed like the group was really closed in and each individual were just an individual. And i started praying really really really har cos it seemed rather hard to be able to open up the group and get them to bond. So i prayed really hard. I was really scared. :/
But as the days went on, i kept spamming games cos thats the best way i know how to bond people- by having fun. So i kept spamming group games and i tried to keep talking to each group member so i could know more about them, and most importantly to find an area to speak into their lives about.
And God was good.
The quietest person of the group opened up to me sharing that she hasnt been to church for a year. So i encouraged her to open her heart to Jesus and receive him anew this camp. Another girl told me straight in the face on day one that she hated camps. Dear God. But in the end, i beleived she enjoyed herself cos she really warmed up to the group and was very chatty. So thank God. They were the girls i was most worried abt. But by the grace of God, they were transformed.
My group is a group of people with different personalities.
But its amazing how we all ended up bonding together as a group.
Hannah- The loud leader
Jared- The VERY loud one.
Sis Yanni- The open one
Nigel- The old one. :P
Nicholas- The joke. :D
Janice- The joker wannabi.
Pearl- The out of the world.
Simon- The out of his mind.
Zeke- The baby! ^_^
Andrea- The queit one
Hannah- The secretly loud one. ;)
So yuou see. We have very different personalities. But how we ended up so bonded a group, i have no idea. :/
So anyway.
On the last day, i got everyone to write nice stuff about each other.
And i spent the night before writing loooooong kletters for each and everyone of my memebers cause i wanted to speak into their lives one last time. And i was very very encouraged by what they wrote for me. It touched my heart so much i wanted to cry. :)
The ones that touched me the most was from Andrea and Nigel.
I was very encouraged by ANdrea's because she was one of the ones that seemed impossible to crack at the beginning. She was one of those i prayed the hardest for. And if it were the old Hannah, I'd probably not care about her because she was so quiet. But after the hard season this year and after the maturing in my mind and spirit, i wanted to make a difference in every single one of their lives. So i tried to speak into her life as much as i could. I prayed for her at the altars too. And this is what she wrote to me:
Thanks for being such a nice Gl, So encouraging."
Just that short line melted my heart. I was so encouraged. I thanked God for using me.
Though the encouragement was short, it was the most encouraging cause it was proof that i had made an impact in her life. I had moved from where i was from not accepting people, to a place of loving unconditionally. ALthough i may not have understood her completely, the fact that she could say i was encouraging meant alot to me. It was a sign that i had grown in the area of loving people. And yes, i loved every single one of my group members. (: God i feel like a mum. T_T
The second person that really encouraged me was nigel, the AF guy in my group. He thanked me for leading the cell, and he said that i had spoken into his life. And i really thank GOd for that. I feel that that was so amazing cause it showed how much i had grown spiritually. I had grown so much that the words i say can encourage a guy older than me. It was just encouraging.
Through the camp, i could tell that my group had heartfelt respect for me. They never questioned my leadership, they trusted in everything i said. They never talked back but they obeyed my cammands whenever i asked them to do something. To me, that was enough. It showed me i had done my job as a GL. My group trusted me. And to me, that was enough. I was more than satisfied with my work as a GL. (:
Moving on to the GOD experience.
This camp was the most God orientated camp ive ever been to. A day of games was cancelled just so we could have time to rest, so that we could pay attention during the night services. And to me, though i was disappointed in not being able to spend more time with my cell, i feel it was a very good call because we all needed the rest. ANd in the endd, God moved like never before.
I think this is the first camp that God truely exceeded my expectations for him.
I asked for a new experience - He gave me one.
He showed me how it was like to touch his presence. It was like a Pandora's box. You open it, you cant bear whats inside. same thing. When i stepped into his presence, deeper than before, i started shaking. I couldnt bear it. God was just too Holy for me to bear it. I kept jumping in and out of it like it was a Hot Spring. What an experience!
It was also the first time that i realised how desperate i was for God. On the first day, durinbg the night service, it seemed like I had been desiring and waiting and praying and seeking something of God, for God's presence, that when it came, it came as a gush of wind. More like a Tsunami. Its indescribable, really. It was just magnificant. God is jsut amazing.
So anyway, God really spoke to me about alot of things during camp.
God really dealt with my hurts from the failures and the fear of furture failures.
God showed me how much i had grown this year in the mind and in the spirit. It had been such a great gfeat season of growth i am stunned by the extent of growth. I think its the biggest extent of growth i have ever experienced. Then again, it was the hardest trial i have been through yet. ANd i thank God for it, because i hung on, and God gave me so much more in return. Truely.
There are so many other things i want to tell.
But most of it is rather personal. Haha.
So its all in a nutshell. (:
Camp was great because God was great.
Never have i been left in such awe and love and wonder for him as i did after this camp.
And his presence still resonates in my heart.
I love Jesus. (:
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