Prelims

Hello.
Its almost the end of prelims and i think im starting to see some light :D HAha
Well im really glad that prelims are almost over. But when i think about the future right after prelims, i cant seem to find that sense of YES ITS OVER cos even when prelims end, the studying regime would pretty much remain the same. So there's no feeling of anticipation for it to be over cos really, to me its just been a 'practice paper' and not something that will determine anything. So im not stressing my self over it. (:

BUT.
Prelims has been anoying.
I mean you cant really ignore all the hype and stress that you go through while preparing for the paper right. HAha. And yea i could totally do without the freaking out over mind blankings and getting irritated when i cacnt seem to remember anything. Id do without them anytime. x) haha.

But looking back i think its been a really good exam. (:
Im not sure how i'd do, but i definately say its my best exam performance to date. (:
Ive never felt so confident (Not that im very confident) when i step into the exam hall and sure of myself when i did the paper. Although i dont know how to answer a number of the questions, the fact that i actually knew what i was doing was enough of a comfort for me. It just showed me that im improving and catching up and hey, maybe i do have a shot at As. (:

Retaining is not even an option now considering how well i understand my stuff now. You know really, it doesnt seem as hard and daunting as it seemed in the beginning of the year. (: I guess i just took it one step at a time and as i take every step, the steps become easier and easier and it becomes more of a breeze. (: Not that i know everything or enough to get an A but i think if i continue at this pace, i'll get there eventually. (:

Well, this prelims has been filled with divine intervention.

When i was studying many of my subjects, i just felt alot of promptings from God that this will come out, this will not come out, concentrate on this topic, dont bother about the other one.. and really. Its been so amazing.

One example i want to highlight is Biology paper 2.
I was studying and studying and i nearly gave up sudying protein synthesis cos i was kinda sick of studyng DNA and i didnt really want to immerse myself into it. But something (which i believe was God) kept prompting me to study it. Like A FEW TIMES through my studyng. So i just forced myself to study it well and GUESS WHAT! It came out a 10m question just on protein syntheses. I think i got it. ;) HAHA. Thank God man. Its sooo amazing what God has been doing for me.

Another thing is, MY GC DIED YESTERDAY NIGHT and not during my papers! Thats really really amazing considering how much i need a GC for chem today. And it died last night! God is soo good. really. (:

Ive been listening to podcasts and praying and reading proverbs and its quite funny how God has been speaking to me. One thing he's been revealing to me are my faults in myself. And my weaknesses. And as much as i dont want to admit them or do anything about them, i think its time i did something about them before they become a thorn in my flesh. So aye. Be Humble, Hannah. Lay down your pride and start learning.

So thats all from me today. (:

Ciao, fellas. (:

YOG

Today was the opening of the YOG!
The opening ceremony was SOOO GOOD OMG!!!
Im so fraeking proud of singapore!
I really am! :)
What a spectacular show for and to the world. I am so produ of the standards.
The skyline was sooo beautiful and the fireworks just made it even moer amazing!
The lighting was sooo well done and the song 'Everyone', man... It made my heart melt. It is such a great song. I would kill to work with ken lim one day. He is one amazing man. x)




Im really proud of SInapore.
And i am proud to be a singaporean, even though i am only half one.
My birth is half, but my blood is pure.
I really love SIngapore. (;

Unfortunately sadly not everyoone feels the same way. :( Many singaporeans are very negaive towards thr country, how its run, the weather, the education, the sports.. the list goes on. But they never realise how priveledge they are until they don have it anymore. I feel really sad towards these singaporeans because Singapore ius such a great country. If only they would open their eyes and start appreciating what they have instead of thinking about the bad stuff. If you only concentrate on the downsides, you'll never be happy cos you'll never realise he good things around you. and to me, thats pathetic. And they have my sympathy. Sigh... I reallly hope they'll realise how great singapore is. And appreciate what they have now.

But that aside, you know how everything is about sports right now, I just came back from a run and i was running by the road. Guess what. Almost everyone in the cars that drove past drove slower to check me out. See if i was a yog athlete. T_T HAHAHHA. It was damn funny i was soo tickled! x) How amusing. I am seriously gonna try wearing my hong kong china shirt to J8 and see if they are especially nice to me because they think i am a foreign athlete! HAHA I bet you it;'ll work. HAHAHA.

But anyway. Im sooo excited for YOG even though im not a part of it.
If only i didnt have As this year! :(
I would have gone to see alot alot alot ALOT of things and spend monkey time on the TV man. HAHAHA. Lapping everything up!
Come on. Having such a historic game at my doorstep is just the best thing in the world. Esp since i live like an olympian cos i really try to make the olympic values the way i live my life. Of course other than God's way. But i really want to embody what being an olympian means, even if i am or will never be one.

The Olympic values:
Excellince, Friendship, Respect.
Citius, Altius, Fortius.

Believe you're a champion,
Think like one
And one day, you will become one.

Hello!

Haha. Its kinda a pity i didnt blog much this year. :( Now i kinda regret it cos i didnt get to pen many of my best moments this year down. :( Okay actually i can remember the best moments of the year. but sometimes its the jokes of the day i want to remember and the mundane things i did and the different things that i do everyday... Sigh... But ah well. I guess i should start penning down the best parts at least. (:

well right now...
Im really excited to go watch YOG. I really really wish i could be part of the experience in one way or another. :( DARN STUPID As. As seriously screwed my life up im so sad. :( Haha. Well, the athletes have all arrived at the games village and its sooo exiting the thought that my china competitor is already in town!! I really really wanna meet her and take her out! ANd meet all the pros and friend them too! OMG SO EXCITING! :D Time to throw away my face and be some crazed YOG fan that i actually am. HAHAHAHA. :)

OH YEAH OH YEAH OH YEAH
HEY! :D

Exciting. much?

Hello. Haha.



I just booked my tickets for YOG! :D

Im in school now. Im supposed to be studying but hey.

Its YOG!

Im so excited to have the best youth athletes in my own country!! Its sooo exciting!!!

Well i guess it so much more relevant to me since im a youth athlete too. (:

And making friends with foreign athletes have always been the best part of overseas comps anyway. So yog is just so so so spectacular to me im so excited. (:



Gonna spend $100 on YOG man. Thank God ive been saving up. Or at least havent had the opportunity to spend. HAha. x) Awesome much! Just heart pain that the tickets are sooooo damnnnn expensive!!!



But YOG.

Once in a lifetime experience hello!!!

In Singapore HELLO!

At Bishan Stadium HELLOOO!!!



And sommore i know some of the athletes competing. Hurhur.

So awesome to go ASian Juniors. ;) WOOTS!

Gu Si Yu FTW!!

My china pal YO!!

HAHAHAHA. :D



SO anyway.

YOG is so awesome i can hardly wait.

Gonna watch it on 22nd august!

I cant thank God enough on how he made it possible for me to go!

1. Its on a WEEKEND

2. Its BEFORE my prelims

3. Its BOTH guys and girls SHOT PUTT AND JAVELIN!!!

The top 2 events i wanna watch omg!!! <3!

So DAMN EXCITED! :D :D :D



But other than that, life just kinda sucks man.

Studying everyday every hour...

I dont feel anywhere near prepared for prelims much less As.

Mr Tan just told me if i dont get all Ds for prelims, im very risky.

Die sia.

Ive never even gotten more than a D for my exams before la. :(

And prelims are supposed to be hard right.



Oh god im sooo dead i dont know where to start.

Kinda like freaking out right now but i cant do anything about it.



And being a near-elite athlete...

Failure is not an option.



Sigh.....

Need.

Help.



Lots and lots of help. :/



For now, back to chem.

Byebye. Haha

Im back.

Okay hello.
I know i havent been blogging in like FOREVER literally since this IS the first post of the year. HAHAHA. Well, I just cant handle having all the nice nice memories being replayed in my head over and over and over again without it being penned down and trust me, the memories ive had this year are so so so worth remembering. (:

So far, the past 7 months has been such a roller coaster ride its really so crazy, yet so memorable. In some ways, it has been the best, yet in other ways it has been the worst.

So today, i'll just tell you how crappy my life has been.

Well. I started the year off quite badly i believe.
I was really lonely and emo and sad and depressed and stuff cos well, i was now alone.
Well almost. I mean after chntal and bo tin left, it was kinda hard to adjust.

I upped my training to everyday training and i needed to study and i didnt have a social life. So i was kinda quite depressed. Haha. It really was sooo bad that my friends could tell i was withdrawing myself, and i seemed more sad, and i just wasnt the happy cool gal i was a few months ago.

But thankfully, slowly, God put people in my life to be friends with me and be there for me and things really did get better. Slowly, i let go and let God bring more people into my life. Slowly i matured and started to understand more about myself and how and why i react to relationships the way i do. Innitially i was kinda sad that i didnt belong to any click since ppl all around me seemed to belong somewhere. But over time, i realised that having people that care about you beats being in one group any time. And having these friends were enough for me. So i started to treasure those around me even more. And i really thank God for that.

Well, i have so many many other things to share. But i'll leave that for next time. (:

CIAO!

Camp!

I know this is wayyyy overdue, but i havent had the chance to blog about it. Haha. (:

Well, I was finally a GL for camp! :D
YAYYYY!!!
And camp was really really really awesome.
I had a blast, and God just blew me away.

Okay. Lets start by talking about my group.
Red Eagle 3, Hong Ying San, Hegal (Sudu) Merah Tiggah.
I love my group. And i am so so so proud of them and even prouder to be their GL.
The group started out very shaky.
On the first day, it seemed like the group was really closed in and each individual were just an individual. And i started praying really really really har cos it seemed rather hard to be able to open up the group and get them to bond. So i prayed really hard. I was really scared. :/

But as the days went on, i kept spamming games cos thats the best way i know how to bond people- by having fun. So i kept spamming group games and i tried to keep talking to each group member so i could know more about them, and most importantly to find an area to speak into their lives about.

And God was good.
The quietest person of the group opened up to me sharing that she hasnt been to church for a year. So i encouraged her to open her heart to Jesus and receive him anew this camp. Another girl told me straight in the face on day one that she hated camps. Dear God. But in the end, i beleived she enjoyed herself cos she really warmed up to the group and was very chatty. So thank God. They were the girls i was most worried abt. But by the grace of God, they were transformed.

My group is a group of people with different personalities.
But its amazing how we all ended up bonding together as a group.
Hannah- The loud leader
Jared- The VERY loud one.
Sis Yanni- The open one
Nigel- The old one. :P
Nicholas- The joke. :D
Janice- The joker wannabi.
Pearl- The out of the world.
Simon- The out of his mind.
Zeke- The baby! ^_^
Andrea- The queit one
Hannah- The secretly loud one. ;)

So yuou see. We have very different personalities. But how we ended up so bonded a group, i have no idea. :/

So anyway.
On the last day, i got everyone to write nice stuff about each other.
And i spent the night before writing loooooong kletters for each and everyone of my memebers cause i wanted to speak into their lives one last time. And i was very very encouraged by what they wrote for me. It touched my heart so much i wanted to cry. :)

The ones that touched me the most was from Andrea and Nigel.
I was very encouraged by ANdrea's because she was one of the ones that seemed impossible to crack at the beginning. She was one of those i prayed the hardest for. And if it were the old Hannah, I'd probably not care about her because she was so quiet. But after the hard season this year and after the maturing in my mind and spirit, i wanted to make a difference in every single one of their lives. So i tried to speak into her life as much as i could. I prayed for her at the altars too. And this is what she wrote to me:

Thanks for being such a nice Gl, So encouraging."

Just that short line melted my heart. I was so encouraged. I thanked God for using me.

Though the encouragement was short, it was the most encouraging cause it was proof that i had made an impact in her life. I had moved from where i was from not accepting people, to a place of loving unconditionally. ALthough i may not have understood her completely, the fact that she could say i was encouraging meant alot to me. It was a sign that i had grown in the area of loving people. And yes, i loved every single one of my group members. (: God i feel like a mum. T_T

The second person that really encouraged me was nigel, the AF guy in my group. He thanked me for leading the cell, and he said that i had spoken into his life. And i really thank GOd for that. I feel that that was so amazing cause it showed how much i had grown spiritually. I had grown so much that the words i say can encourage a guy older than me. It was just encouraging.

Through the camp, i could tell that my group had heartfelt respect for me. They never questioned my leadership, they trusted in everything i said. They never talked back but they obeyed my cammands whenever i asked them to do something. To me, that was enough. It showed me i had done my job as a GL. My group trusted me. And to me, that was enough. I was more than satisfied with my work as a GL. (:

Moving on to the GOD experience.

This camp was the most God orientated camp ive ever been to. A day of games was cancelled just so we could have time to rest, so that we could pay attention during the night services. And to me, though i was disappointed in not being able to spend more time with my cell, i feel it was a very good call because we all needed the rest. ANd in the endd, God moved like never before.

I think this is the first camp that God truely exceeded my expectations for him.

I asked for a new experience - He gave me one.

He showed me how it was like to touch his presence. It was like a Pandora's box. You open it, you cant bear whats inside. same thing. When i stepped into his presence, deeper than before, i started shaking. I couldnt bear it. God was just too Holy for me to bear it. I kept jumping in and out of it like it was a Hot Spring. What an experience!

It was also the first time that i realised how desperate i was for God. On the first day, durinbg the night service, it seemed like I had been desiring and waiting and praying and seeking something of God, for God's presence, that when it came, it came as a gush of wind. More like a Tsunami. Its indescribable, really. It was just magnificant. God is jsut amazing.

So anyway, God really spoke to me about alot of things during camp.

God really dealt with my hurts from the failures and the fear of furture failures.

God showed me how much i had grown this year in the mind and in the spirit. It had been such a great gfeat season of growth i am stunned by the extent of growth. I think its the biggest extent of growth i have ever experienced. Then again, it was the hardest trial i have been through yet. ANd i thank God for it, because i hung on, and God gave me so much more in return. Truely.

There are so many other things i want to tell.

But most of it is rather personal. Haha.

So its all in a nutshell. (:

Camp was great because God was great.

Never have i been left in such awe and love and wonder for him as i did after this camp.

And his presence still resonates in my heart.

I love Jesus. (:

Merry Christmas!

Today i had one of the best christmases in my life. (:

Firstly, i received many many nice presents very unexpectedly.
I had innitially wanted to give out my cards and gifts and throw the plastic bag away. But instead, i needed the bag because i received so many gifts! :) And im really touched cos i honestly didnt expect to receive even anything. But i did.

But the thing that touched me the most wasnt the gifts, but rather the reason i got the gifts. Many of the gifts were given out of appreciation of my presence in my friends lives and it really touched me to know how many people ive impacted through the year. I felt so encouraged to see how God has used me to impact and bless the people around me this year. And to me, that was the best christmas present.

So thanks friends, for appreciating me. Because that made my christmas more special than anything. And thank you for letting me appreciate you. THis christmas had truely been one of the most touching ones. (: Because i gave and i received greatly. (: THank you Lord.

THe second thing was that my dad performed for christmas service! Im so so so rpoud of him! ^_^ He sang 'We Three Kings' together with PDA and Bro Titus, but i think although all 3 of them did a great job, my dad sang the best. I was so so so proud of him i gave him a standing ovation! (: He sang so well. The voice control and the power that came out. Sheesh! I was so proud of my daddy. I think i got my voice from him. ;) Hahha.

So anyway.
Its been a great christmas.
Thank you Lord for everything.
I love yuou so much.

Happy Birthday Jesus! (: