Hey Hey!
Im in vietnam now. Haha. Its currently day 2 of my 5 day trip in vietnam sea gmes junior. Haha.
The tri[ kinda started out a little lonely since i was the only thrower there. But it soon got better. (: Haha. Tim and Yi Hao were really nice, telling me i could always look for them if i ever felt lonely or something. (: Really touched. Haha.
Well. As we all started on out jouney from the airport and all, everyone started hanging out and all. I just hung out with the guys cos there was tim and yi hao, and i didnt quite fit in with the girl sprinters. Well, i kinda figured that it was totally fine being alone. Haha. No im not a loner. :P Just mature enough to not feel bad being alne. It was quite interesting.
Well, i started hanging out with the guys during the trip. It was really fun! Haha. The airplane ride was so so only. Haha. The food was good though.
Well, after the plane ride, we went to the hotel, only to wait 3+ hours for the rooms to be settled. The Vietnam organizers were really badly organized. We booked 9 rooms, but they were now only willing to give us 3 rooms because other ppl had come to the hotel first, so they gave the rooms to them. It was really maddening. Ughh.
So a few of us were transfered to another hotel just opposite. The outside looked really grummy and i was hoping i wouldnt get transfered there.
But as always, i get what i dont want. And i got transfered there, together with 8 other athletes and an official- Aunty Margaret.
But as fate and destiny would have it, the 9 /10 of us are having the time of our lives spnding time together. The 10 of us have bonded pretty much in a day. Haha. The fun outing we had, the great dinner, and the night spent together playing cards. MAN! It was fun! (: Haha.
Im really starting to enjoy my time here. Though there's nothing much to do here, well. The company's great. (: ahahah.
Thank God!
he really knows whats best for me. (:
Oh yes. I saw my thai competitor.
The girl who won 1st for asean last year.
Well, im not as intimidated.
I guess becase my dad told me something to remember:
David Won Goliath!
David was small in size and goliath was a giant. Yet David won goliath by the power of God backing him.
Im not saying that i can win the 'giant' aka the thailand girl, but rather i will ot be intimidated because i have a great God that will support me and will watch over me. I may not beat her, but by the pwoer of God, i pray and hope to achieve my personal best of 12m. God, i ask in faith for 12m this weekend. I really really wanna break the mental barrier i've had for so long.
Well, im not gonna be intimidated by the sizes of my competitors, but im just gonna go into the field and do my best. God, all glory goes to you no matter what.
Well. May the best person win. (:
Friday, June 5, 2009
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Not performing and growing fat
Today's nats Junior was kinda disaster.
Free medal, but honestly, they're starting to mean nothing to me.
Aye. I am grateful for them, but im starting to treasure the more importnat and prestigious ones more than the rest.
Today there was very little or almost no competition at all.
5 ppl for discus and 4 ppl for shot putt.
Kinda wierd.
I got 2nd for discus and 1st for shot.
My discus was 27.85m and shot was 11.16m.
Kinda wierd, really. Quite terrible.
Discus anyhow whack la. Not my pet also.
So lost to kelly, obviously. She didnt perform today, though. Aye.
Then shot putt...
Sigh...
I didnt get to warm up much and my food didnt get enough time to digest. By the time my throws got warmed up, the event was over. Every 5 minutes i have to throw one ball. And 5 minutes isnt enough to psyco and warm up and get excited. It was horrid. Afer my event, i still wasnt quite warmed up. I still had a whole lot of energy and i could like go for another 50 throws with no problem. Sigh. so i was trying to rid myself of the glycogen in my liver. So i walked around, jumped around and tried to get ppl to play badminton with me. Well. It didnt quite work. hahaha. But oh well.
Well. Up to now, my energy from all the food i ate still hasttnt been used up to the max. Pfffft.
Tmr sure grow fat. :( Oh no.
and tmr's the team meeting for Sea Junior.
From what i know so far, quite a number of awesome peeps are going. (:
I pray and hope for a great time there. :D
Free medal, but honestly, they're starting to mean nothing to me.
Aye. I am grateful for them, but im starting to treasure the more importnat and prestigious ones more than the rest.
Today there was very little or almost no competition at all.
5 ppl for discus and 4 ppl for shot putt.
Kinda wierd.
I got 2nd for discus and 1st for shot.
My discus was 27.85m and shot was 11.16m.
Kinda wierd, really. Quite terrible.
Discus anyhow whack la. Not my pet also.
So lost to kelly, obviously. She didnt perform today, though. Aye.
Then shot putt...
Sigh...
I didnt get to warm up much and my food didnt get enough time to digest. By the time my throws got warmed up, the event was over. Every 5 minutes i have to throw one ball. And 5 minutes isnt enough to psyco and warm up and get excited. It was horrid. Afer my event, i still wasnt quite warmed up. I still had a whole lot of energy and i could like go for another 50 throws with no problem. Sigh. so i was trying to rid myself of the glycogen in my liver. So i walked around, jumped around and tried to get ppl to play badminton with me. Well. It didnt quite work. hahaha. But oh well.
Well. Up to now, my energy from all the food i ate still hasttnt been used up to the max. Pfffft.
Tmr sure grow fat. :( Oh no.
and tmr's the team meeting for Sea Junior.
From what i know so far, quite a number of awesome peeps are going. (:
I pray and hope for a great time there. :D
Saturday, May 30, 2009
My mental barrier
I currently have a mental barrier i cant face.
Its like there is a cup on the table that i want to take.
It is an arm's length away.
I can take it if i just reach out my arm.
Thats how close it is to me.
Yet, when i reach my arm, i realise that there is a plastic sheet btw my arm and the cup.
And i cant reach it even though it is within reach.
Thats how i feel right now.
I need to break this mental barrier.
Oh God.
Help me.
Its like there is a cup on the table that i want to take.
It is an arm's length away.
I can take it if i just reach out my arm.
Thats how close it is to me.
Yet, when i reach my arm, i realise that there is a plastic sheet btw my arm and the cup.
And i cant reach it even though it is within reach.
Thats how i feel right now.
I need to break this mental barrier.
Oh God.
Help me.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Athelethically overwhelming
Today was a rather overwhelming day in sports. Haha.
Well.
In the morn, there was this BIG drama i created because i got accepted and am being sent to vietnam next week for SEA GAMES JUNIOR!!! :D :D :D
It came as a HUGE surprise as i kinda gave up the idea of getting in because the appeal was sent in 2 weeks ago, and the trip's next week!
So i was pleasantly surprised that i was shortlisted to go. :D
Thank the LORD!
Seriously!
So i'll be away from the 4th to the 8th of June. (:
Which is in exacly one week's time. Lol.
AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME!
FINALLY GOT TO GO SEA GAMES! :D
And to be chosen, means that i have a chance to get top 3.
Oh God.
I want top 3.
I want 12m! :D
Ah well.
After that, was school.
Which wasnt exacly the best of days, but it was okay.
I ponned econs lecture to meet haoyi for lunch. :D
For the first time ever, my ex-coach treated me to lunch!!! *GASP!* :D
I was so thrilled. Hahahaha.
It was a rather good catch up session. (:
We're still as close as ever and haoyi...
Haoyi hasnt changed a bit. (:
And oh do i love that coach of mine. ^_^
Aye. I miss talking to him. Haha.
I wished we had more time to talk.
But time wasnt on our side. :( Boo.
So when his kids came, i went to put my stuff down, bought a fruit juice, then went to the pit to look for haoyi. (: Ah well.
After that, i had track exco meeting, which also came as a surprise because i didnt know i was in the exco since i knew i wasnt the vice cap. But i happened to be the secretary, which puts me in the exco. Haha. So, Hannah Lee Shih Yan of 09S32 is officially the track girls secretary and part of the exco. It is an honour to be chosen to be in the exco. (: Haha. But i also have to do all the admin work. Meh. No complaints here. I actually enjoy doing admin work. ^_^ HEE.
Well, during the meeting, i also learnt that Mr Melvin Tan is leaving, which is a rather big shock to me. :( I really looked up to him as a teacher and a coach and a motivator and a mentor and to know he's leaving is like.. BAM! :( I was quite sad actually. Still am. :( But ah well. Life has to go on. I guess its a different season for every one of us. And we just need to trust God and move on with life. (:
After the meetings and all, i had training.
Coach wasnt very pleased with all of us today.
He gave us attitude and we were kinda shocked that he was so angry.
Well.
I didnt throw too well today.
Infact, i havent been throwing well at all.
I barely pass 11m nowadays and that scares me big time.
It shows that i have not improved at all! :(
Honestly, im really worried abuot my throws.
I have this HUGE mental block infront of me right now which im finding rather hard to breech.
Somehow, i know i can reach 12m. I should be doing that now. But somehow, i cant. And its definately a mental block. :(
Somebody help me!!!!!!!!! :(
I really need to break that bariar to reach my full potential. :(
Aye.
On the way home with Miss Yu, who gave me a lift back home, i talked alot with her. And i learnt more baout her and coach. It was so cute! :P Did you know my coach used to coach James Wong? BIG SHOCKER THERE! Haha. Confidence level in coach has risen another lot. Haha. (: ah well.
Enough banter for now. (:
Well.
In the morn, there was this BIG drama i created because i got accepted and am being sent to vietnam next week for SEA GAMES JUNIOR!!! :D :D :D
It came as a HUGE surprise as i kinda gave up the idea of getting in because the appeal was sent in 2 weeks ago, and the trip's next week!
So i was pleasantly surprised that i was shortlisted to go. :D
Thank the LORD!
Seriously!
So i'll be away from the 4th to the 8th of June. (:
Which is in exacly one week's time. Lol.
AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME!
FINALLY GOT TO GO SEA GAMES! :D
And to be chosen, means that i have a chance to get top 3.
Oh God.
I want top 3.
I want 12m! :D
Ah well.
After that, was school.
Which wasnt exacly the best of days, but it was okay.
I ponned econs lecture to meet haoyi for lunch. :D
For the first time ever, my ex-coach treated me to lunch!!! *GASP!* :D
I was so thrilled. Hahahaha.
It was a rather good catch up session. (:
We're still as close as ever and haoyi...
Haoyi hasnt changed a bit. (:
And oh do i love that coach of mine. ^_^
Aye. I miss talking to him. Haha.
I wished we had more time to talk.
But time wasnt on our side. :( Boo.
So when his kids came, i went to put my stuff down, bought a fruit juice, then went to the pit to look for haoyi. (: Ah well.
After that, i had track exco meeting, which also came as a surprise because i didnt know i was in the exco since i knew i wasnt the vice cap. But i happened to be the secretary, which puts me in the exco. Haha. So, Hannah Lee Shih Yan of 09S32 is officially the track girls secretary and part of the exco. It is an honour to be chosen to be in the exco. (: Haha. But i also have to do all the admin work. Meh. No complaints here. I actually enjoy doing admin work. ^_^ HEE.
Well, during the meeting, i also learnt that Mr Melvin Tan is leaving, which is a rather big shock to me. :( I really looked up to him as a teacher and a coach and a motivator and a mentor and to know he's leaving is like.. BAM! :( I was quite sad actually. Still am. :( But ah well. Life has to go on. I guess its a different season for every one of us. And we just need to trust God and move on with life. (:
After the meetings and all, i had training.
Coach wasnt very pleased with all of us today.
He gave us attitude and we were kinda shocked that he was so angry.
Well.
I didnt throw too well today.
Infact, i havent been throwing well at all.
I barely pass 11m nowadays and that scares me big time.
It shows that i have not improved at all! :(
Honestly, im really worried abuot my throws.
I have this HUGE mental block infront of me right now which im finding rather hard to breech.
Somehow, i know i can reach 12m. I should be doing that now. But somehow, i cant. And its definately a mental block. :(
Somebody help me!!!!!!!!! :(
I really need to break that bariar to reach my full potential. :(
Aye.
On the way home with Miss Yu, who gave me a lift back home, i talked alot with her. And i learnt more baout her and coach. It was so cute! :P Did you know my coach used to coach James Wong? BIG SHOCKER THERE! Haha. Confidence level in coach has risen another lot. Haha. (: ah well.
Enough banter for now. (:
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Power Hungry
Someone told me that i was power hungry today.
Well i wouldnt consider myself power hungry, but i would rather think myself to be a natural leader. Not that i think i am fabulous at leading a group or something, but its something that is natural, that is inborne, that is part of my rather dominant nature. I dont like commanding, ive learnt its not worth it. But yet i enjoy leading people. I enjoy taking the innitiative to lead a project, to lead people in the direction i believe is right.
Is that being power hungry?
I accept the decision made by the teachers in charge and by the track team.
Though honestly, i really did hope to be appointed the vice-cap of the girls team. But since i didnt, im fine with it too. (: I guess it wasnt the position for me, and i accept that. (: PErhaps Grace and Shiying are better than me. And i will support them because they are my captains.
Ever since i came to VJ, i have found my leadership path to be rather interesting. Instead of fighting to be in the lead, i decided to take one step back and follow instead of leading. I used to be someone in Fairfield. A rather prominant figure. A worship leader, a student councillor, a captain. But when i came to VJ, i decided i would desire none of the leadership position and just let nature take its course. And nature has taken a very interesting course for me. (:
I didnt join house com because i was afraid of the commitment.
I somewhat wish i did now cos it looks like SO MUCH FUN!
But i guess that wasnt quite part of my destiny, so be it. (:
I tried to run for class chairman but it was given to someone else.
Well, i guess my class didnt quite believe in me when we all first met and the networking among my classmates wasnt strong so i guess thats why i lost out. Well, i didnt mind settling for a normal student status in my class. (:
I didnt join the Students council.
I REFUSED to. Haha.
I;ve been in te prefects and council since primary school.
Enough rules for once in my life!
So. I didnt get any leadership roles.
I didnt quite volunteer for any.
As not humbling as this sounds, i humbled myself in VJ to take the roles of ordinary citizens of VJ- Only to become more outstanding than i'de imagine i'de become.
Lets start with my class, shall we. (:
Though i wasnt made the class chairman, i still lead the class in subtle ways. Im proud to say that i may not hold a prominant class position, but yet i have earned my classmates' respect. I Thank the Lord for the favour he has granted me with my classmates and thought i am a nobody in my class exco, i am a somebody to my class. I know for sure my classmates respect me and it touches my heart to know how much they care. (: Through SLV, i have seen how my class has supported me as a leader. Though i became the unofficial leader of the SLV, i have but proven my worth as a person and as a leader. And to me, that is good enough. (:
Whats the point of having a leadership role if you dont have the hearts of the people?
Wouldnt it be better to be a nobody, yet win the hearts of the people?
Thats something ive learnt.
And it is really interesting. (:
Secondly, Track and Field.
Dont get me wrong, im really really totally fine with not being the vice cap of the team. But it touches my heart to know that many of the trackers really believed in me and really looked to me as a future leader of the team. Well, though i may not be the vice cap, i will put in my effort to bring the team forward. (: Odd thing is, im not the vice cap of my own team, but im the vice cap of the ASEAN team. So which one speaks louder? Im not really sure. Haha. (: Quite interesting, no?
Well thirdly, i didnt join any leadership role in school.
But yet at the soccer match yesterday, when i shouted and asked the school to get on their feet to cheer for the soccer guys, they did.
I dont understand whats going on.
Maybe it was the recognition of person from musicfest.
Or Maybe its because i was totally loud and big and prominant.
I dont know.
BUt somethings happening.
God is granting me favour with almost everyone i meet.
I am making an influence on the people i meet.
I am impacting lives of people i meet.
Hmmm.
Maybe as Pastor Andy said, that as i impact people, i'll direct them to God?
I dont know.
But i smell destiny.
And i know its not far away any longer.
Lord, call.
Call me.
I believe you have the best planned for me and i dont wanna miss a thing.
So.
Am i power hungry?
Haha.
Give everyone what you owe him,
if respect, then respect;
if honor then honor.
Romans 13:7
Well i wouldnt consider myself power hungry, but i would rather think myself to be a natural leader. Not that i think i am fabulous at leading a group or something, but its something that is natural, that is inborne, that is part of my rather dominant nature. I dont like commanding, ive learnt its not worth it. But yet i enjoy leading people. I enjoy taking the innitiative to lead a project, to lead people in the direction i believe is right.
Is that being power hungry?
I accept the decision made by the teachers in charge and by the track team.
Though honestly, i really did hope to be appointed the vice-cap of the girls team. But since i didnt, im fine with it too. (: I guess it wasnt the position for me, and i accept that. (: PErhaps Grace and Shiying are better than me. And i will support them because they are my captains.
Ever since i came to VJ, i have found my leadership path to be rather interesting. Instead of fighting to be in the lead, i decided to take one step back and follow instead of leading. I used to be someone in Fairfield. A rather prominant figure. A worship leader, a student councillor, a captain. But when i came to VJ, i decided i would desire none of the leadership position and just let nature take its course. And nature has taken a very interesting course for me. (:
I didnt join house com because i was afraid of the commitment.
I somewhat wish i did now cos it looks like SO MUCH FUN!
But i guess that wasnt quite part of my destiny, so be it. (:
I tried to run for class chairman but it was given to someone else.
Well, i guess my class didnt quite believe in me when we all first met and the networking among my classmates wasnt strong so i guess thats why i lost out. Well, i didnt mind settling for a normal student status in my class. (:
I didnt join the Students council.
I REFUSED to. Haha.
I;ve been in te prefects and council since primary school.
Enough rules for once in my life!
So. I didnt get any leadership roles.
I didnt quite volunteer for any.
As not humbling as this sounds, i humbled myself in VJ to take the roles of ordinary citizens of VJ- Only to become more outstanding than i'de imagine i'de become.
Lets start with my class, shall we. (:
Though i wasnt made the class chairman, i still lead the class in subtle ways. Im proud to say that i may not hold a prominant class position, but yet i have earned my classmates' respect. I Thank the Lord for the favour he has granted me with my classmates and thought i am a nobody in my class exco, i am a somebody to my class. I know for sure my classmates respect me and it touches my heart to know how much they care. (: Through SLV, i have seen how my class has supported me as a leader. Though i became the unofficial leader of the SLV, i have but proven my worth as a person and as a leader. And to me, that is good enough. (:
Whats the point of having a leadership role if you dont have the hearts of the people?
Wouldnt it be better to be a nobody, yet win the hearts of the people?
Thats something ive learnt.
And it is really interesting. (:
Secondly, Track and Field.
Dont get me wrong, im really really totally fine with not being the vice cap of the team. But it touches my heart to know that many of the trackers really believed in me and really looked to me as a future leader of the team. Well, though i may not be the vice cap, i will put in my effort to bring the team forward. (: Odd thing is, im not the vice cap of my own team, but im the vice cap of the ASEAN team. So which one speaks louder? Im not really sure. Haha. (: Quite interesting, no?
Well thirdly, i didnt join any leadership role in school.
But yet at the soccer match yesterday, when i shouted and asked the school to get on their feet to cheer for the soccer guys, they did.
I dont understand whats going on.
Maybe it was the recognition of person from musicfest.
Or Maybe its because i was totally loud and big and prominant.
I dont know.
BUt somethings happening.
God is granting me favour with almost everyone i meet.
I am making an influence on the people i meet.
I am impacting lives of people i meet.
Hmmm.
Maybe as Pastor Andy said, that as i impact people, i'll direct them to God?
I dont know.
But i smell destiny.
And i know its not far away any longer.
Lord, call.
Call me.
I believe you have the best planned for me and i dont wanna miss a thing.
So.
Am i power hungry?
Haha.
Give everyone what you owe him,
if respect, then respect;
if honor then honor.
Romans 13:7
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