Hello!

Haha. Its kinda a pity i didnt blog much this year. :( Now i kinda regret it cos i didnt get to pen many of my best moments this year down. :( Okay actually i can remember the best moments of the year. but sometimes its the jokes of the day i want to remember and the mundane things i did and the different things that i do everyday... Sigh... But ah well. I guess i should start penning down the best parts at least. (:

well right now...
Im really excited to go watch YOG. I really really wish i could be part of the experience in one way or another. :( DARN STUPID As. As seriously screwed my life up im so sad. :( Haha. Well, the athletes have all arrived at the games village and its sooo exiting the thought that my china competitor is already in town!! I really really wanna meet her and take her out! ANd meet all the pros and friend them too! OMG SO EXCITING! :D Time to throw away my face and be some crazed YOG fan that i actually am. HAHAHAHA. :)

OH YEAH OH YEAH OH YEAH
HEY! :D

Exciting. much?

Hello. Haha.



I just booked my tickets for YOG! :D

Im in school now. Im supposed to be studying but hey.

Its YOG!

Im so excited to have the best youth athletes in my own country!! Its sooo exciting!!!

Well i guess it so much more relevant to me since im a youth athlete too. (:

And making friends with foreign athletes have always been the best part of overseas comps anyway. So yog is just so so so spectacular to me im so excited. (:



Gonna spend $100 on YOG man. Thank God ive been saving up. Or at least havent had the opportunity to spend. HAha. x) Awesome much! Just heart pain that the tickets are sooooo damnnnn expensive!!!



But YOG.

Once in a lifetime experience hello!!!

In Singapore HELLO!

At Bishan Stadium HELLOOO!!!



And sommore i know some of the athletes competing. Hurhur.

So awesome to go ASian Juniors. ;) WOOTS!

Gu Si Yu FTW!!

My china pal YO!!

HAHAHAHA. :D



SO anyway.

YOG is so awesome i can hardly wait.

Gonna watch it on 22nd august!

I cant thank God enough on how he made it possible for me to go!

1. Its on a WEEKEND

2. Its BEFORE my prelims

3. Its BOTH guys and girls SHOT PUTT AND JAVELIN!!!

The top 2 events i wanna watch omg!!! <3!

So DAMN EXCITED! :D :D :D



But other than that, life just kinda sucks man.

Studying everyday every hour...

I dont feel anywhere near prepared for prelims much less As.

Mr Tan just told me if i dont get all Ds for prelims, im very risky.

Die sia.

Ive never even gotten more than a D for my exams before la. :(

And prelims are supposed to be hard right.



Oh god im sooo dead i dont know where to start.

Kinda like freaking out right now but i cant do anything about it.



And being a near-elite athlete...

Failure is not an option.



Sigh.....

Need.

Help.



Lots and lots of help. :/



For now, back to chem.

Byebye. Haha

Im back.

Okay hello.
I know i havent been blogging in like FOREVER literally since this IS the first post of the year. HAHAHA. Well, I just cant handle having all the nice nice memories being replayed in my head over and over and over again without it being penned down and trust me, the memories ive had this year are so so so worth remembering. (:

So far, the past 7 months has been such a roller coaster ride its really so crazy, yet so memorable. In some ways, it has been the best, yet in other ways it has been the worst.

So today, i'll just tell you how crappy my life has been.

Well. I started the year off quite badly i believe.
I was really lonely and emo and sad and depressed and stuff cos well, i was now alone.
Well almost. I mean after chntal and bo tin left, it was kinda hard to adjust.

I upped my training to everyday training and i needed to study and i didnt have a social life. So i was kinda quite depressed. Haha. It really was sooo bad that my friends could tell i was withdrawing myself, and i seemed more sad, and i just wasnt the happy cool gal i was a few months ago.

But thankfully, slowly, God put people in my life to be friends with me and be there for me and things really did get better. Slowly, i let go and let God bring more people into my life. Slowly i matured and started to understand more about myself and how and why i react to relationships the way i do. Innitially i was kinda sad that i didnt belong to any click since ppl all around me seemed to belong somewhere. But over time, i realised that having people that care about you beats being in one group any time. And having these friends were enough for me. So i started to treasure those around me even more. And i really thank God for that.

Well, i have so many many other things to share. But i'll leave that for next time. (:

CIAO!

Camp!

I know this is wayyyy overdue, but i havent had the chance to blog about it. Haha. (:

Well, I was finally a GL for camp! :D
YAYYYY!!!
And camp was really really really awesome.
I had a blast, and God just blew me away.

Okay. Lets start by talking about my group.
Red Eagle 3, Hong Ying San, Hegal (Sudu) Merah Tiggah.
I love my group. And i am so so so proud of them and even prouder to be their GL.
The group started out very shaky.
On the first day, it seemed like the group was really closed in and each individual were just an individual. And i started praying really really really har cos it seemed rather hard to be able to open up the group and get them to bond. So i prayed really hard. I was really scared. :/

But as the days went on, i kept spamming games cos thats the best way i know how to bond people- by having fun. So i kept spamming group games and i tried to keep talking to each group member so i could know more about them, and most importantly to find an area to speak into their lives about.

And God was good.
The quietest person of the group opened up to me sharing that she hasnt been to church for a year. So i encouraged her to open her heart to Jesus and receive him anew this camp. Another girl told me straight in the face on day one that she hated camps. Dear God. But in the end, i beleived she enjoyed herself cos she really warmed up to the group and was very chatty. So thank God. They were the girls i was most worried abt. But by the grace of God, they were transformed.

My group is a group of people with different personalities.
But its amazing how we all ended up bonding together as a group.
Hannah- The loud leader
Jared- The VERY loud one.
Sis Yanni- The open one
Nigel- The old one. :P
Nicholas- The joke. :D
Janice- The joker wannabi.
Pearl- The out of the world.
Simon- The out of his mind.
Zeke- The baby! ^_^
Andrea- The queit one
Hannah- The secretly loud one. ;)

So yuou see. We have very different personalities. But how we ended up so bonded a group, i have no idea. :/

So anyway.
On the last day, i got everyone to write nice stuff about each other.
And i spent the night before writing loooooong kletters for each and everyone of my memebers cause i wanted to speak into their lives one last time. And i was very very encouraged by what they wrote for me. It touched my heart so much i wanted to cry. :)

The ones that touched me the most was from Andrea and Nigel.
I was very encouraged by ANdrea's because she was one of the ones that seemed impossible to crack at the beginning. She was one of those i prayed the hardest for. And if it were the old Hannah, I'd probably not care about her because she was so quiet. But after the hard season this year and after the maturing in my mind and spirit, i wanted to make a difference in every single one of their lives. So i tried to speak into her life as much as i could. I prayed for her at the altars too. And this is what she wrote to me:

Thanks for being such a nice Gl, So encouraging."

Just that short line melted my heart. I was so encouraged. I thanked God for using me.

Though the encouragement was short, it was the most encouraging cause it was proof that i had made an impact in her life. I had moved from where i was from not accepting people, to a place of loving unconditionally. ALthough i may not have understood her completely, the fact that she could say i was encouraging meant alot to me. It was a sign that i had grown in the area of loving people. And yes, i loved every single one of my group members. (: God i feel like a mum. T_T

The second person that really encouraged me was nigel, the AF guy in my group. He thanked me for leading the cell, and he said that i had spoken into his life. And i really thank GOd for that. I feel that that was so amazing cause it showed how much i had grown spiritually. I had grown so much that the words i say can encourage a guy older than me. It was just encouraging.

Through the camp, i could tell that my group had heartfelt respect for me. They never questioned my leadership, they trusted in everything i said. They never talked back but they obeyed my cammands whenever i asked them to do something. To me, that was enough. It showed me i had done my job as a GL. My group trusted me. And to me, that was enough. I was more than satisfied with my work as a GL. (:

Moving on to the GOD experience.

This camp was the most God orientated camp ive ever been to. A day of games was cancelled just so we could have time to rest, so that we could pay attention during the night services. And to me, though i was disappointed in not being able to spend more time with my cell, i feel it was a very good call because we all needed the rest. ANd in the endd, God moved like never before.

I think this is the first camp that God truely exceeded my expectations for him.

I asked for a new experience - He gave me one.

He showed me how it was like to touch his presence. It was like a Pandora's box. You open it, you cant bear whats inside. same thing. When i stepped into his presence, deeper than before, i started shaking. I couldnt bear it. God was just too Holy for me to bear it. I kept jumping in and out of it like it was a Hot Spring. What an experience!

It was also the first time that i realised how desperate i was for God. On the first day, durinbg the night service, it seemed like I had been desiring and waiting and praying and seeking something of God, for God's presence, that when it came, it came as a gush of wind. More like a Tsunami. Its indescribable, really. It was just magnificant. God is jsut amazing.

So anyway, God really spoke to me about alot of things during camp.

God really dealt with my hurts from the failures and the fear of furture failures.

God showed me how much i had grown this year in the mind and in the spirit. It had been such a great gfeat season of growth i am stunned by the extent of growth. I think its the biggest extent of growth i have ever experienced. Then again, it was the hardest trial i have been through yet. ANd i thank God for it, because i hung on, and God gave me so much more in return. Truely.

There are so many other things i want to tell.

But most of it is rather personal. Haha.

So its all in a nutshell. (:

Camp was great because God was great.

Never have i been left in such awe and love and wonder for him as i did after this camp.

And his presence still resonates in my heart.

I love Jesus. (:

Merry Christmas!

Today i had one of the best christmases in my life. (:

Firstly, i received many many nice presents very unexpectedly.
I had innitially wanted to give out my cards and gifts and throw the plastic bag away. But instead, i needed the bag because i received so many gifts! :) And im really touched cos i honestly didnt expect to receive even anything. But i did.

But the thing that touched me the most wasnt the gifts, but rather the reason i got the gifts. Many of the gifts were given out of appreciation of my presence in my friends lives and it really touched me to know how many people ive impacted through the year. I felt so encouraged to see how God has used me to impact and bless the people around me this year. And to me, that was the best christmas present.

So thanks friends, for appreciating me. Because that made my christmas more special than anything. And thank you for letting me appreciate you. THis christmas had truely been one of the most touching ones. (: Because i gave and i received greatly. (: THank you Lord.

THe second thing was that my dad performed for christmas service! Im so so so rpoud of him! ^_^ He sang 'We Three Kings' together with PDA and Bro Titus, but i think although all 3 of them did a great job, my dad sang the best. I was so so so proud of him i gave him a standing ovation! (: He sang so well. The voice control and the power that came out. Sheesh! I was so proud of my daddy. I think i got my voice from him. ;) Hahha.

So anyway.
Its been a great christmas.
Thank you Lord for everything.
I love yuou so much.

Happy Birthday Jesus! (:

Trust in God.

I asked for Strength, God gave me Difficulties to make me strong.
I asked for Wisdom, God gave me Problems to solve.
I asked for Prosperity, God gave me Brain and Brawn to work.
I asked for Courage, God gave me Danger to overcome.
I asked for Love, God gave me troubled people to help.
I asked for Favors, God gave me Opportunities.
I received nothing I wanted, I received everything I needed!

Trust in God.
Always!

- Written by Fuwei Fong. Ignyte Ministry.
Hahahaha. (:

I found this on facebook and i feel like its just so... appropriate and it makes so much sense.
I hink i'll think about it alot more the next few days. (:

RUAN JING TIAN! :D

Today in Taiwan,
Whilst shopping at Sogo,
In Taipei,
While standing at the escalator waiting for my dad to come down,
i saw an angel.
AHHH!

No i didnt la. HAHAHA.

I SAW RUAN JING TIAN!
You know the Ji Cun Ci from Fated to Love you?
ZOMG! I SAW HIM! :D :D :D

I SAW RUAN JING TIAN LIVE IN TAIWAN!
ZOMG!!!
I was too stunned to react.
I was just in shock!
My goodness!
I couldnt believe i was sooooo lucky as to have seen a taiwan actor and of all of them i saw HIM! ^_^ WOOTS I TELL YOU! WOOTS!

He had shaved his hair short,
was wearing jeans and a white tee,
and sunglasses at the back of his head.
He looks alot skinnier in person.
I think he might have lost somne weight cos his face wasnt so skinny on screen.
AH!
but DAMN HOT SERIOUSLY!
Ahhhhh. BEst day of my life! HAHA

But Thinking back, i should have stalked him down the escalator and asked for an autograph and a picture dammit! But i was too shocked to do anything. Ah DAMMIT! DAMMIT! DAMMIT!
SO WASTED!

I still cant believe i saw him!
WOOTS!!!! ^_^
Best day in TAIWAN EVER! HHAHAHAHHA!