Hello.
Its almost the end of prelims and i think im starting to see some light :D HAha
Well im really glad that prelims are almost over. But when i think about the future right after prelims, i cant seem to find that sense of YES ITS OVER cos even when prelims end, the studying regime would pretty much remain the same. So there's no feeling of anticipation for it to be over cos really, to me its just been a 'practice paper' and not something that will determine anything. So im not stressing my self over it. (:
BUT.
Prelims has been anoying.
I mean you cant really ignore all the hype and stress that you go through while preparing for the paper right. HAha. And yea i could totally do without the freaking out over mind blankings and getting irritated when i cacnt seem to remember anything. Id do without them anytime. x) haha.
But looking back i think its been a really good exam. (:
Im not sure how i'd do, but i definately say its my best exam performance to date. (:
Ive never felt so confident (Not that im very confident) when i step into the exam hall and sure of myself when i did the paper. Although i dont know how to answer a number of the questions, the fact that i actually knew what i was doing was enough of a comfort for me. It just showed me that im improving and catching up and hey, maybe i do have a shot at As. (:
Retaining is not even an option now considering how well i understand my stuff now. You know really, it doesnt seem as hard and daunting as it seemed in the beginning of the year. (: I guess i just took it one step at a time and as i take every step, the steps become easier and easier and it becomes more of a breeze. (: Not that i know everything or enough to get an A but i think if i continue at this pace, i'll get there eventually. (:
Well, this prelims has been filled with divine intervention.
When i was studying many of my subjects, i just felt alot of promptings from God that this will come out, this will not come out, concentrate on this topic, dont bother about the other one.. and really. Its been so amazing.
One example i want to highlight is Biology paper 2.
I was studying and studying and i nearly gave up sudying protein synthesis cos i was kinda sick of studyng DNA and i didnt really want to immerse myself into it. But something (which i believe was God) kept prompting me to study it. Like A FEW TIMES through my studyng. So i just forced myself to study it well and GUESS WHAT! It came out a 10m question just on protein syntheses. I think i got it. ;) HAHA. Thank God man. Its sooo amazing what God has been doing for me.
Another thing is, MY GC DIED YESTERDAY NIGHT and not during my papers! Thats really really amazing considering how much i need a GC for chem today. And it died last night! God is soo good. really. (:
Ive been listening to podcasts and praying and reading proverbs and its quite funny how God has been speaking to me. One thing he's been revealing to me are my faults in myself. And my weaknesses. And as much as i dont want to admit them or do anything about them, i think its time i did something about them before they become a thorn in my flesh. So aye. Be Humble, Hannah. Lay down your pride and start learning.
So thats all from me today. (:
Ciao, fellas. (:
